re-incarnation

Sis I love you!

2012-01-29T20:50:00.000-08:00

The moment when you think you want to quit , you have to rewind yourself back on how you are. Well you just arrived at one destination , you are new to that place , fresh and didn't know anything.Back to basic which means you are zero .

But now you are nearly ending , the hundreds meters you ran are nearly finish . You are gasping so hard , breathing for air but at the same time you are running and keep running because you want to REACH for it . At those moment you are 50/50 . You are thinking . Are you going to win? or Are you going to lose?

With those fatigues , weariness and also difficult mind to think wouldn't You cut the crap and just run! till the end. Cause you know you will be finish the race and the wining or losing isn't matter anyway.

So dear , please think all these thing that you are nearly finish . You will be going home sooner or later . We all cares and support you . We know you are so strong ,well Ghazi'ians are strong and tuff! so you are! We are proud of you! So keep on hanging there and run till the finish line!

Insyallah soon you will get those rewards from your own effort.

p/s: just a lil gift for you , see this video if you want to play your guitar. Learn some new chords , when you come home boleh la poyo ngn aku. Tcre kak! loves

Xmas in Zurich

2011-12-09T11:44:00.000-08:00

When it comes to Christmas , I was the one who are very excited. Its not that we are celebrating the festival but I know the idea of Christmas is getting a present from family and friends. I just loved this giving present things as it is such a surprised rather than getting duit raya. Yeah I think I have my own Christmas experienced back then when our family are staying in Johor Bahru . I can't remember how is it the celebration but maybe we went to see my dad's friends. I can choose one box of present which is piled up at the Christmas tree. It was long time a go but still it keep remains in my memories.

Enough about the old stories , just want to let you know that Christmas in Zurich are so exciting. Its not even December they already put up the x mas light. The very famous Lucy Light which all over the Banhoff street and when you be there you will see its like snows falling down. It is such a nice view and from there you will know Christmas is coming!

This pictures are singing xmas tree where there would be choir up in the x mas tree. There would be so much people see the event and its so much fun when the kids also are singing together. :)

The singing Christmas tree :)

This is the lucy light , that lights up all the Banhof Street.

Don't you love all the details of it? Colorful ! Loved it so much!

This is the famous Swaroski Christmas tree which is made from crystal and diamonds.

I just loved to spend my days in Zurich and I know I will be heading back home soon . The one that I missed my family in Zurich and also my crazy double sided head friends Fatma. hehe

p/s: If you read this fatma , do cry for me and sing MOTHER LOVER SONG! hhahaha

another p/s: I am so lazy to fix my grammar. Sorry papa if you read this. I'll work it on next time. hahaha

Zurich Nightlife

2011-11-21T22:38:00.000-08:00

There is one guy from the Swiss TV "SRF" is very friendly to me and as usual , I am the tourist in Zurich. So he ask lot of question about what I have been doing here in Zurich. He also suggest me some of Zurich attraction place. He was kind enough to offer me to have a hiking trip again when there is snow. But in my mind "don't let him so serious about this , hiking trip again??"

It is not that I don't like hiking , I do LOVED it ! Especially when we reach up in the Swiss Alps , no words can described how beautiful it was. Subhanallah!

But again when I am thinking how long does it take to be walking up in the hill , in the meadow and how steep it was ??And the fact that I need four days to fully recover my legs! ahhh ... I would like to re- consider his invitation though.

But later one he tells that , ZURICH is most popular for its nightlife. And again he ask me have you been one of Zurich club?

and i was like errr............ ( there was a silence moment )

I was smiling to him like I didn't say yes or no.

Oh yeah , I really know the fact that Zurich is famous for its nightclub and pub. Haaha .

But frankly to tell the truth , my nightlife are not like theirs.

Hahaa I rather having a cozy sleep in the bed or having hot chocolate at the coffee shop.

I choose quiet and peace rather than some techno music banging in the head. No offence techno lovers , we are all have different kind of taste and that is why we are so unique for the way we are.

One thing that I know about Zurich it is so beautiful when the nights come.

From the right : Grossmunster churche , St.Peter Kirche and also Fraumunster.

p/s: when my mum ask me how am i doing . Will i be thin when i go back home , and i only answer her MUM , mostly I eat CHEESE. so sila lah lihat pipi saya.

You are not eligible yet!

2011-11-14T10:56:00.001-08:00

The reason of this post because its just a reminder to myself that i am not eligible YET to be married.

Cammano nak kahwin ah ?? One incident that make me think y it is :

1) There are few attempt to cook rice without 'rice cooker' because with rice cooker dah pass! and yes in Zurich I dont think they used rice cooker. All they eat are pasta and bread.

Yesterday I boiled the rice and unfortunately die x masak!!!! I don't know why? so this is my failure moment. It seems like dah masak but in the end when i want to have my dinner , It is uncooked!

So today I continue on my cooking failure. I try to make bubur with nasi semalam .

I thought i am genius when i just leave the uncooked rice with a lot of water in it . Guess what? Hangit!!

At this moment i said to myself " stop dreaming Ika !"

2) The second thing that I went for groceries shopping to buy some veges and other stuff .So Fatma company me and we both go to Migros. When we both look at Kobis , we dont know which one to take: the big one or the small one. I take the small one - sbb nak murah and no it is not. Its damm expensive . A kobis for likely RM 10 ?? Can you imagine? And when i come home , I prepare all tHE stuff to cook and that time just I realized the SMALL kobis which is EXPENSIVE belum masak lagi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I found it is very hilarious because both of us are not ELIGIBLE TO GET MARRIED YET!

p/s: In the end ika makan nasi bubur dengan sayur kobis masak lemak santan and sambal ikan bilis 3 in 1 Brahim. haha such a loser but syukur tidak pernah lapar di sini.

Childhood memories

2011-11-13T23:39:00.000-08:00

I could listen to this song over and over !

and singing it in the shower!

Not a fixer to be

2011-11-12T22:03:00.000-08:00

Recently I try to mend something but I have to accept the fact that I am not a fixer.
I try to mend something that is precious , gifted and something took about 8 years of our sweet childhood & youthful lives.
The result of the fixing things ??
Sigh , no answer.
I just make it more worst.
The least I can do is to sit quietly and not messing with anyone.

I can't save everything that I want.
Maybe that is how life turned out to be.

Back and Forth love

2011-10-11T13:52:00.000-07:00

This is what exactly it is all about. we are in back and forth , in fighting for our love. ridiculous as it seems but this is the reality.

p/s :I love you always and forever baby, that's all i need.

Everyone are MadMen

2011-09-25T11:35:00.000-07:00

I am an insecure , emotionally and neurotic person and how can someone accept me for the way i am? GILA ape?

Instead of thinking of myself gila , it makes me thinking why that person can accept orang gila macam saya? Or make that person more GILA than I am?

I dont know the answer for the questions , but for now I can lived with the fact that Orang Gila is you and people around you also GILA.

p/s: everyone had their limit of their madness and this day I realised I just reached my madness .

Apple Saft Shooting

2011-09-21T10:28:00.000-07:00

Sudah 8 minggu ika dekat Zurich and well done this is my first blog post pasal my life in Swiss. hehe I know i am not an avid blogger type as I can't write really well.
But yes , alhamdulillah dah hampir dua bulan ika menetap di Zurich. Berpuasa di sini memang sangat mencabar mana tak nya ramadhan jatuh di musin summer jawabnye panjang siang dri malam. Seventeen hours of fasting , its a long time and i could always hear my tummy growling. Baru tahu rasenya mcm mana anak-anak somalia ataupun fakir miskin x dpt makan. That moment make me realised the real thing of puasa.

Sangat bersyukur di sini , ika ade byk kenalan baru dan juga pengalaman yang sgt best. whatever it is , this is pictures from my second shooting. Apple saft which is persatuan apple di suisse. They are really proud of their tanaman la. so thts y they always market their stuff. The shooting is at Rapperswill which is the nice view of lake and it was directed by Cello. Ika just tolong jadi pak pacak je la. But i had a nice day with Fatma and also the crew.

Orang swiss , mmg makanan diorg is bread. So croissant ni one of their fav and also muesli - mixed up of bijiran dgn buah2.

As well , i am trying to learn german sikit sikit , tpi ika ni malas sket as they all can speak english. heheh . but i know a lil bit of words. The first week kat sini , i know how it feels to not be at your surrounding , your normal place . you are homesick back then and its hard to faced this phase. And alhamdulillah I am trying to , my friends and family back home give me lot of support and my mind should think the other way around and not always see what i dont have.

Tapi , ika kat sini baik2 aje . sebab semua orang baik sangat dengan ika. Ika rase ade family baru bila ika join Uncle Andre and his family for a dinner. They are so nice and kawan-kawan kat sini ade yang rahmah ade yang suke bantu. And yes ika ade jumpa orang malaysia kat sini , but not student malaysia . susah tau bukan mcm uk orang malaysia belambak. But ape-ape pun ika ade pengalaman seronok sekali bawak orang Malaysia berjalan2 di Zurich.

One thing ika suka sangat pasal swiss ni sbb pokok die!! hehe pokok die sangat bermacam2 bentuk dan sgt besar n tua. Ika suka sgt tempat yang sngat hargai nature kat sini orang die sngt hargai natural . Evrywhere is green , kamera ika banyak sangat gmbr pokok. heheh Scenery die sgt cntik :)

And yeah , sudah dua bulan yer ika disini . So harap dpt belajar byk 2 lagi harap dapat kumpul pengalaman yang mmg susah nak dpt ni. So i am good here. dun worry yer :)
And this is a lil bit pic from apple saft shooting. gmbr sket sbb nak upload byk agi kat fb. hehe and ika jadi extra so kene la stay satu tmpt je. x dpt tgkp gmbr sgt. heheh

this is for u

2011-08-31T13:47:00.000-07:00

Wait
Don’t wait for the water
Wait
Don’t wait for the water

We don’t even talk anymore
And we don’t even know what we argue about
Don’t even say I love you no more
’cause saying how we feel is no longer allowed
Some people will work things out
And some just don’t know how to change

Chorus:
Let’s don’t wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let’s don’t wait till the water runs dry
We’ll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don’t do it baby

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that’s a pain we can’t hide
’cause everybody knows that we’re both torn apart
Why do we hurt each other
Why do we push love away

Chorus

Don’t do it baby
Don’t do it baby
Wait
Watch
Don’t wait for the water
Wait
Don’t wait

Some people will work things out
And some just don’t know how to change

Chorus

Wait
Don’t do it baby
Wait
Don’t do it baby
Wait
Watch
Wait
No, no baby
We might watch our whole lives, yeah
Don’t wait for the water

p/s: what we gone through makes us torn apart. I don't know how am i gonna fixed this. Please don't let our water runs dry ,lets fixed this. :(

Tak mengerti

2011-08-31T13:23:00.000-07:00

Setiap manusia mempunyai cerita ,kisah hidup , perasaan
masing -masing. tetapi untuk orang memahami impian kite sangatlah susah , walapun orang itu adalah orang yang paling rapat sangat dengan diri kita. Susah hendak orang lain baca hati kita dan susah juga untuk kita baca hati org lain. Untuk mencapai kata sefahaman mmg bukan mudah. Perbincangan kecil membawa kepada perbincangan yang besar. Semuanya dengan satu tujuan untuk mnyelesaikan masalah , tetapi untuk mencapai kata sepakat bukanlah mudah. Dari perbincangan yang kecil telah menjadi sebuah perbincangan yang besar hingga melibatkan pergaduhan , perasaan diri masing-masing. Pelbagai permainan perasaan bermain di dalam diri . Bende yang remeh dijadikan sebagai isu besar. Ah ! rumitnya manusia ni. Kan senang kalau bende yang engkau nak engkau bagitahu sahaja. Tapi ada juga manusia benda yang engkau tak nak engkau saja katakan supaya orang lain x boleh menduga diri engkau sebenarnya. Rumitkan manusia ni?
Aku tak paham kenapa kau tidak boleh berterus terang dan kenape hendaknya bermain sembunyi perasaan ni. Diri ku sangat mudah , jika aku rase aku perlu katakan sesuatu bende aku akan katakan. aku tak suka bermain sembunyi sembunyi ni. Kenapa orang lain nak main sembunyi2 perasaan dengan aku ni. Aku cuba untuk pahami orang itu tetapi kenape susah untuk aku lakukan sedemikian. (mungkin orang itu pun tak dapat fahami aku kan?)

Sedihnya hati bila rasa mcm ni.

p/s: nampak sangat blog aku ni tempat luahkan perasaan kan. Swiss punya update pun x tulis kat blog lagi. Btw im here in Zurich dah 4 minggu dah. Doakan ieka belajar sunguh2 di sini ye.

deal with me

2011-07-10T09:52:00.000-07:00

I need someone who can share all those things happens in my life. even the small thing matters. I know I'm such a control freak but whatever it is deal with this . this is me!

~Ika bukan sorang-sorang ~

2011-06-30T10:29:00.000-07:00

Selalu aku yakinkan hati aku ni, yang selalu terluka terguris perasaan dengan manusia lain. Mungkin sebab aku ni seorang yang suka mengharap , suka berangan , suka mempunyai impian , suka membantu orang , suka mendahulukan orang lain daripada diri sendiri. Itu lah aku. Sedar dengan kesilapan diri sendiri tetapi masih lagi lakukan kesilapan yang sama. Entah , tak tahu kenapa susah untuk aku ubah. Mungkin sifat bebal, bodoh , simpati , empati , setia aku ni sangat kuat dan sudah sebati dengan diri aku sendiri.

Aku pernah di nasihatkan supaya buang harapan aku yang tinggi mcm gunung tuh tapi bile aku pikir balik what the used of having mind ? or imagination? Sudah diberi oleh maha yang esa kenapa harus dibuang. Mungkin sukar untuk aku berkawan dengan orang yang hanya memandang realiti . Yang sukar untuk menerima diri aku sebegini.
Yang pasti Aku rela rasa sakit , menangis hari demi hari kerana aku terlampau takut untuk buat perubahan.

Manusia lain pandang aku seperti perempuan yang kurang stabil , terlebih emosi ataupun lebih senang cerita 'crazy person'. yes I admit it , i am acting like one of those . I am the type which can't pick up a phone call when i was mad , angry or sad . I am the type will lie for the sake of the other person. I know by lying i would save a person day. Aku akan tipu pasal diri aku supaya orang lain x payah risau dengan diri aku. yups thts me!

Apa yang aku tidak tipu adalah menulis di sini , kerana ianya ruang yang kosong seperti kertas dan jariku adalah satu-satunya alatan untuk menaip. Boleh dikatakan ianya adalah peneman setia untuk aku meluahkan perasaan.Mungkin aku pernah cerita sedikit sebanyak kepada rakan baik aku mahupun ahli keluarga tetapi bukan semua cerita aku mereka ingin dengarkan. Penat jugak mereka nak mendengar kisah hidup aku. Kadang-kadang ,bila dicerita ada yang memberi respons yang baik dan ada yang terus buat endah x endah sahaja.Pelik kan? Itulah manusia. Bila mereka memerlukan teman , aku selalu di tepi mereka tak kira waktu dan ketika , panggil sahaja aku akan ada. Mungkin mereka tak sedari pengorbanan aku untuk mereka. Mungkin kerana tipu-tipu aku itu , mereka merasakan aku adalah manusia yang gagah.

Tetapi sebenarnya aku bukanlah segagah mana. Luaran nampak kuat kental tetapi sebenarnya di dalam diri banyak sangat benda disimpan . Tak perlulah di buka disini ,biar DIA sahaja yang tahu.Aku bersyukur kerana sesedih mana diriku , aku bukanlah keseorangan.DIA sentiasa berada dengan aku ,tidak pernah sekali DIA meninggalkan aku.
Aku bersyukur mendapat kelebihan seperti itu sebagai muslim , mengingati DIA adalah perkara yang wajib dilakukan. Kadang-kadang aku tersimpang jauh dari jalan nya , namun DIA x pernah sekali pun jauh dari aku. Masih lagi sentiasa bersama diriku ini. Indahkan ?
Sebab itu lah apabila aku resah , terasa mcm nak gila , DIA lah tempat untuk aku mengadu kerana aku tahu tiada satu benda pun dia tidak tahu di dalam diri aku.

Kerana itu manusia cepat lupa dan cepat sedar kembali. Alhamdulillah jika kita mempunyai peluang untuk membuat perubahan kerana ianya adalah satu peluang emas. Jika kita masih lupa , ketuklah pintu hati kita agar terjaga dari mainan jiwa kita sendiri.

p/s: ika amik ni dari blog my classmate- i really loved read her blog sgt membuka minda.http://pendambarahmat.blogspot.com/

2nd p/s: terkadang hidup rasa kosong....
tetapi itu hanyalah bisikan palsu...
sesungguhnya tiada siapa yang sendiri....
Allah sentiasa ada menemani...

mungkin ini adalah ganjaran aku setelah aku berusaha bersungguh-sungguh . Allhamdulillah , bulan Julai dah pun masuk , 22 hari lagi sahaja lagi. :)

"date post"out look

2011-06-10T12:51:00.000-07:00

hey everyone , i think this is my first trial to post my out-look certain times. I am not a very fashionable person but i simply loved to dress according to my mood n occasion. so you may see me very snobbish at one time but hey! girls got to do what they have to do! is to be pretty!

cheap tangerine blazer - it was a gift
fos miami beach t-shirt
acid-wash jeans kitschen
v-ki cheap ankles boots

Amour te amour

2011-05-27T03:03:00.000-07:00

We're drifting apart ,
I dunno what should more to be said ,
I hate that I loved you so much ,
I hate the fact that it makes me cry every time think of it,
Ika , You are not hard as what you think ,
the solid wall is getting collapsed,
Not literally all collapsed ,
but it slowly , take times ,
times and times , gradually it will collapsed
and shattered all the hopes that have you've been creating
hopes that keeps u on smiling ,
gasping or excited for the brand new day ,
it is long gone dear , all long gone ,
because you are no who you are ,
you've be someone else for the sake of hope that you've been smiling at,
silly isn't it,
but that's happening when you are ,
so blunt in what does people say AMOUR.
AMOUR thats not really heaven.

p/s: I feel like wanna leave so badly ... please make it quick. I know this is just some unstable emotions running through myself. sorry it is a thing to let it out but i do heart you!always be amour you

the answer

2011-05-17T05:43:00.000-07:00

"Why she is so genius?"
" what makes she is so special? why all the teacher love her? "
" why she always be the first and top student? "
" why can't I be like her?"

hurm.....

i bet all of you ever popped this question with your friends?
or some of you like jealous of her and you all rather criticized her than agree with what does she have?

when i was in lower school I always have this question over my mind because I am not a bright student and I am not preety either. Durgh that's mean there is nothing special bout me.
I always envy to those beautiful girl who have gifted talent like they can dance , sing and also excel with her study. But for me , i am a girl that isn't really a favourite of anyone. Can you believed ,all the girls are playing batu seremban while me and other boys are drawing digimon cartoon by using buku latihan. Or i always beat them when playing tutup botol and the worst thing is there is one chinese boy who are scared of me because I used to slap him in the face. Tulah sape suruh bace diari org suke suka je. LOL Funny isn't ?

I lived and learned from the school memories that i had and from there i realised that we are all different in our own perfect way.

In lower school -I may not be a school dancer but I am a school runner. even though not as good as my sister but i am preety proud to lived with it.
In middle school Cochrane- I may not be Top PMR but I had a great experienced of being English debater and I don't know how Miss Goh put her faith on me ?
In MRSM - I am not the most bright student who always get above 3.5 but im proudly to say I am a basketball player for the school. (walaupun main hanya smpi di jelebu je haha)
In matrix- yet again i didn't achieved a great cgpa for my physical studies but it didn't even make me sad because of that I found the new hope that lead me to UPM for my media studies.
I am really grateful for what have fated for me and I am really happy doing my study in UPM.
After what have I gone through , I believed the answer for my question above is

DETERMINATION

If we have a big amount of desire , we will make sure that we will put a big effort on it. That's called determination. So the size of your determination will determined your success and Insyallah with all those prayer, Allah will grant what you want in your life. So don't you ever give up because you will not know what really DETERMINATION is.

p/s: 66 days more for my adventures to begin! later on , i will tell you more on the adventures. wink wink :)

The feelings that couldn't be described?

2011-05-16T09:42:00.001-07:00

Q:What does you feel today?

A:empty

Q:Why does you feel that way?

A:Because I will be leaving.

Q:For a good cause isn't ?

A:Yup :(

Q: Wouldn't it be great?

A:Yeah sure if like any body cares.

Q:Anybody? what do you mean that? are you referring to someone?

A:I guess so ? I bet someone who didn't even remember that I will be leaving soon.

Q:Why would that be?

A:I guess someone who didn't value the time that left.

Q: why would that be? would you share more?

A:I guess it is not worth it because i feel better right now!

Tq anyway , blogspot! That's why you are like super awesome cool friends to me when there are lots of emotions running through myself!
and yeah
the words for today is :

empty-Containing nothing; not holding or having anything within; void of contents or appropriate contents; not filled; said of an inclosure, as a box, room, house, etc.; as, an empty chest, room, purse, or pitcher; an empty stomach; empty shackles.

p/s: I need to filled up this emptiness real quick! would anyone filled it up? lol

Lovey dovey mood

2011-05-06T10:21:00.000-07:00

Have you all watched romantic movies with a perfect tanned guy together with a lovely girl.There would always have one scene which will makes our hearts skipped a beat and all the girls will go like 'ooohhh' or 'ahhhh' .Maybe that guy put so much effort in making crafty handmade card for the girl , or he wrote a love letter for the girl or maybe the kind of guy who can sing for the girl that he loved. We are all wonder that if we were that lucky girl?

and tonight I feel so blissful because ,

I think

I am that lucky girl.

I feel so blessed and I can't hardly stop smiling.

Tq abg for making my night so special and memorable.

p/s :even though my story there is no such thing a tanned guy like penn bradley or a beautiful girl like katherine heighl. But at least I feel so content with what I have today . Tq Allah for giving me the best .I feel so grateful.

and this video are specially for you , that always make my day full of colours.I heart you so.

Need you to listen

2011-05-01T10:47:00.000-07:00

Would you hear? Would you listen?
I guess not , you've changed so much.
How much I miss the time when you are able to listen ,
What's inside me without telling you anything.
God , how much I miss those time.
But I know it's matter of time for you to realized.
That I'm missing the old you.
The one that could listen.

Where is our mama?

2011-04-17T22:01:00.000-07:00

It going to be a long journey for mama n papa to get back home and how could we resist 4 months without them . :( I guess we were all like that bear in the cage clueless in finding their mommy!

Mama and papa already took off to Africa , so we were all living independently together. Funny how my elder brother (Ayip) just message me and said that he already arrived at JB. It's like I'm Mama after all , who should received all the reports. :)lallalala and Abang Boy msg me to get back home just to do house chores ! (haih)
Well I supposed so .. (Kak Narti yang buat kerje )

After mama n papa not here , all of us had done our job perfectly good. wink ;)
Well , I'm lying for sure but what can I say that there are dirty dishes at the sink , whole lot of laundry to be done , and yes our breakfast , lunch and dinner are all 3-in-1 which is PIZZA! hahaha I bet the pizza guy already know the house which didn't cook.

But what can we do , our parents are not here for time being and we try our best not to miss them and if you guys could see how the condition of the house you would know how much we miss them! Lol

To Nina: this is the pictures at the airport

Ayip

Nini

Abang boy (tulis autograph untuk mama- mama nye request)

We miss both of you - Papa & Mama

We miss Nina too !!

Papa and Mama - one last goodbye at the airport

Anyway , have fun mama n papa. We were all wishes you the best in your vacation . Hope that this trip would be like your honeymoon!

P/s: Nini joke around and said to mama " Nini x nak ade adik lagi ye..." and we were all laugh about it.

~"Bila susah dan senang tiada siapa lagi yang perlu kita cari melainkan keluarga yang setia bersama-sama dengan kita"~

Nabil singing grenade -versi Melayu

2011-04-16T08:30:00.000-07:00

Grenade Melayu -funny thou

Peter Gene Hernandez in Kl !

2011-04-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

Obviously im super excited to post up my blog because I just went to BRUNO MARS concert in PWTC and it is very extremely tremendously GREAT! I had so much fun with my friends. So here it is all about HIM my lover ! hahah Baby Bruno! love you so much cuz You are so damn sexy! hahaha

Me and friends after the concert

tony,ard,ninie,amer rekano , me and ajeed (wak)

and here it is pictures of him

Mr. Peter Gene Hernandez !

fyi: Bruno mars said that he will be coming back to Malaysia and I know that he will.Yaiks Im so super duper excited!

"The only one that I want "

2011-03-10T03:32:00.000-08:00

"The only one that I want "

When your minds can't work properly,
your eyes are staring at one spot ,
without blinking ,
you think of another things ,
and your heart feel pain ,
like a great -great pain ,
it doesn't stop , it never will ,
and no one knows how hurt it is.

this is the time , you know ,
the time you know that you need
someone to share on.

the phone starts ringing,
mama's name on the phone,
her voice are soothing enough ,
enough to make the pain go away ,
it is full of tender , the tenderness of her voice

erupted,

a little rivers in my eyes.

14 February 2011
3.25 pm

sakit yang sama

2011-03-02T17:38:00.000-08:00

sudah banyak ubat yang aku makan ,
sakitnya masih sama ,
tangisan aku masih lagi setiap malam ,
menahan keperitan yang dirasai,
mungkin benar katanya ,
DIA rindukan rayuan ika ,
aku merasakan insaf ,
semua sakit yang terjadi ini ,
adalah kehendak-Nya ,
sebagai peringatan kepada diri ku ,
yang mudah lalai dan lupa .
terimalah doaku ini ,
aku hanyalah Hamba yang hanya menerima,
qada' dan qadar mu.

happy february updates

2011-02-27T07:29:00.001-08:00

i just got back from cherating and had a nice holiday with my friends. tq to wats rrong group for making this trip real and i had agreat time with you guys. btw singapore is coming up! haha

bicara mengenai CINTA

2011-02-27T07:16:00.000-08:00

CINTA ,bunyi yang sangat indah
semua orang hendak merasanya ,
tpi ianya membunuh.
memberi tangisan .
membuat kerosakan .
mengkhilafkan .
menakutkan .
dan sangat membutakan
sebab itu semua orang berkata
cinta itu buta .

mungkin cinta pada masa yang tepat
akan mendapat restunya ,
walau apa yang terjadi
cinta itu adalah satu nikmat
yang diberikan oleh-Nya.
yang perlu kita jagain adalah cinta kepada yang ESA.

p/s: ieka aku rindu zaman cinta kanak-kanak ku yang sangat menyeronokkan -(setiap hari jumpe chocolate bawah meja) skrg ni cinta kanak-kanak itu yang aku rindukan .

AKU X MAHU JADI CANTIK! (cehh propa je kan)

2011-02-13T19:27:00.000-08:00

Semua perempuan nak jadi cantik tpi bgi aku alhamdullilah la aku sederhana sahaja.
Nak tahu kenape?

Situasi di kafe kolej yang tercinta , untuk mengambil lauk sayur kacang botol yang bila dikunyah akan mengeluar bunyi kruk2. Situasi ini berlaku selepas aku amik ikan keli yang sememangnya makanan sejiwa dengan aku. Malangnya , untuk mengambil sayur kacang botol tuh ada seorang budak perempuan yang cantik menghalang laluan aku untuk mengambil kacang botol. kejadian pun bermula...

budak selebet: tumpang lalu! kite nak amik sayur.(aku pun meminta laluan dengan mood ceria kanak-kanak aku mcm biase)

budak cntik : memandang ke arah aku dan tepat menjeling ke mata aku dan terus beredar dari kafe.

pada waktu itu , hati aku rase panas je aku pun dengan selambenya bercakap kuat biar budak yang cntik tpi kurang ajar tuh dgr.

budak selebet: mintak lalu je kot! bukan mintak ape pun!

walapun aku x tahu sama ada die dgr ataupun tidak ,tpi asalkan hati aku puas untuk mengajar perempuan yang cantik dan sememangnya tahu dirinya cantik . Di sebabkan dia tahu dirinya cantik , orang banyak memandang dirinya , kerana itulah mereka jadi lebih bongkak apabila berjalan di muka bumi ini. Aku macam x paham kenape sampai nak menjeling , sedangkan kita semua sama sahaja , masih lagi pelajar .Sama-sama duduk di kolej yang smpit , makan di kafe , berak di tandas kolej yg hancem , mandi di shower yg berlumut tuh. Semua sama jer , adat sebagai seorang pelajar. Tapi kenape ada lagi mentaliti perempuan sebegini. Ingatlah satu bende , kecantikan , kesihatan , harta , kekayaan , kepandaian , semua ini adalah bende sementara dan ianya bukanlah milik kita , kita hanya dipinjamkan oleh Allah s.w.t.

(ok skrg mood ckp perak tuh dtg) Jadi jgnle..kite ni nak bongkak sangat awok tuh bukan lawo mane pun ..nak kate mcm lisa surihani , jauh berbatu -batu lagi awok ngn die, nak kate dengan adibah noor , lagi la jauhnye , awok kene makan byk2 bru leh jadi cntik mcm die tau. Ya rabbi teme ni x tahu le mcm mane nak bgi awok sedar.. Jadi teme ni tulis blog jela ..bgi semua orang cntik yang tahu die cntik peringatan "jgn la nak bongkak sgt ye. " Tetibe accident , baru tahu muka cantik itu x de nilai nya bila nilai kebaikan lebih orang pandang.

p/s: wardina lagi lawa kan?

Macam-macam hal lah ...

2011-02-10T08:51:00.001-08:00

Lembu punya susu , sapi dapat nama?

Siape Sapi ? Siapa Lembu?
cube korang pikirkan ?
hahaa mesti pelikkan nape aku post peribahasa ni kan ..
tpi ade cerita disebaliknya .. :)
yang penting sekali ...
aku bukan dua-duanya..
haruslah aku buktikan bahawa aku bukanlah sapi dan aku bukanlah lembu itu ...
aku pelajar biasa yang cuba buat yang terbaik untuk pembelajaran akademik aku ....tpi biasalah ..mcm-macam hal yang berlaku...
x payah nak pikir rumit sgt ..Allah tuh maha kuasa ..die nak aku berusaha lebih lagi ..supaya aku x mudah selesa dengan kedudukan aku ..
dan aku harus redha atas ketentuannya ..insyallah ..

kalau siapa x tahu apa tuh sapi ni lah sapi ...
pembelajaran vocabulary ye ..

norma hidup aku yg bosan

2011-02-09T00:18:00.000-08:00

aku pelik dgn manusia ni , bila kita baik sgt sgt , mcm mcm yg jadi. ada yg pijak pale ade yg ambik kesempatan. entah bila la org nk terima keikhlasan berkawan ni. aku pelik , prihatin yang aku tawarkan , tapi tikam belakang yg aku dapat. entah bila manusia ni nak sedar bahawa hidup ini adalah bedasarkan hukum karma . setiap bende yang diorg lakukan , akan pasti dapat balasan. yang pasti bukan la balasan dari aku sbb aku bukanlah pendendam orangnya. aku mmg lemah , sampai bila aku nak terus maacam ni. bila dah kene , perkara yyang boleh aku lakukan melarikan diri.itu saja yg mampu aku lakukan. nak caci ? maki? marah? orang mmg x la aku buat. yang aku tahu aku masih lagi lemah dalam prinsip hidup aku.. terutama berkawan. kawan kawan ? napelah kau x pernah mengambil kebaikan aku dan membalasnya dengan keceriaan hati. yang cuma aku dapat adalah kecelaruan hati.

Meet MR&MRS MEAN

2011-02-08T06:46:00.000-08:00

I'm such a believer. A great one.
I believe that people are not all means.
I believe that people are means for their own reason.
I believe they act like that way because they have their own reason.
I believe that people simply judge the person without knowing the reason.
I believe that people simply judge them because they are not satisfied with their life.

It is okay for people to have their own judgmental?

I don't know.
But for me , I am such a positive energy . I hated anything negatives comes near me.
If ,I was told about someone who is mean and i will just shut my ear off.
I will listen to the stories but after that it will wear off . It will not give me any impact.
I believe that person must have their own reason .Besides ,it doesn't have anything related to me .
I'm happy with my life then why should I bother about that person.

hye everyone , thats the the old me ...

Guess what ,
the positive energy are no longer remained in me .
Cuz i've meet MR&MRS MEAN... and they are all mean
no matter what reason of it
their reason is the sense of their own self- defensive excuses
which can't be accepted by anyone .
Come one !
You are mean ! Yet you are so naive . To create such excuses.
I'm mad yet i still want to thank them because of them im no longer the cheerios type of girl and heck of believing ..

the most awesome part

2010-12-25T03:29:00.000-08:00

Love this episode..of HIMYM!

p/s: i can't be as though as barney , the day he knows the truth bout his dad.
thats y he is so lagen...dary!

i wish it snow here :)

2010-12-22T09:03:00.001-08:00

whats been going on in december :

i have joined MUFORS road reels video competition ..n in just a week
me n my teamates have completed the short video n it turned out
it is my first animation project ..stop motion
hope the best for it

happy birthday to me ... cuz its december already .. im am sweet 20
had a great bday day , instead of cake i've got cheese burger n also kopi jantan from my lil bro , a whole chunk of chocolate ,a pullover , bag from my mum hahah , purple rayban spec , and also money from my big bro haahaa which turn out tht's the only way for him to get rid off me ..
(cuz ive been like messing with him whole day to make him wishing me )
and yes i didnt get the wishes ..darn
i've got gulai kari telur tembakul from my granny
and also a notebook from tok abah ....to keep all the cooking recipes from maktok
and lastly .. short skirt from my sis i love u!!

yey i've got my driving license :) after third attempt!alhamdulillah
or not i will be sent to sg.petani for sekolah memandu khas which is " sekolah memandu lembam"

im in taiping n i had a great time with my grandparents..
i choose to stay a lil bit longer cuz i know it will make them happy
beside i need the 'cooking lesson from maktok"

so with maktok n tok abah , there is no choice rather than wake up early
just to teman them for early morning at pasar.
how early it is when it is only 7.30 am only to buy kuih :)

in taiping , its no surprise they all wake up tht early just to buy groceries!
if were in kl , i think the most early ppl wake up in sunday morning is 10.00pm ..
lol..itupun kinda early sgt tuh ..

in taiping
i fell in love with the place everytime i went back ..
the place

always raining
cold
quiet
and greeny
just the way i loved ..

and i wish one day ..when i old .
i will be settling in here ..taiping...

p/s: in this month also ..i just know telur tembakul x wujud :( its just a folk tales
it is only normal telur ikan .

100 cucu would do , when im old enuff .. lol

blogging would help :(

2010-12-08T09:58:00.000-08:00

I cannot sleep ,
I am wrong even though i always tot i was so right ..
apologizing is not the best things to do
but there are no other options.
other than saying those lame words of sorry

sorry , sorry , sorry ..

how lame it is

keep on apologizing , can't reverse back.

keep thinking

think , think , think

how dumb i am

how selfish i am

and

it shows

whenever

i am begging for sorry. :(

p/s: you are not always right because this time you are wrong my dear ieka.

How creative my brother is it.

2010-12-06T20:33:00.000-08:00

Family is the most important things in my life and they are the one who will never failed to make me smile everyday . They also the reason why I've been called gemuk. I don't know how to describe my self but i am not so THIN yet i am not so FAT but to them I am the most FATTER person in the family. Like i should be in the biggest loser asia . Lol

Thou should i be called in the name of gemuk. Haih ! and it was my only evil brother's idea.Abang boy ,and later on he called me Beruang .He is my elder brother and he always have an idea just to be the most annoying brother in my life.

(everytime in skype he will do a roaring sound and put a bear emoticon!!!!)

one morning as usual sudah cuti sem , i will wake up a lil bit late . And i heard he screaming as loud as he can to wake me up. He spray water to my face ..yet i didn't moved a bit. He annoyed, fifteen minutes more he shout at my mum " Ma , gemuk ni tidor sekali dengan tin biskut."

My mum come to me n they both laugh at me ??? mcm betul la I tidor dengan tin biskut. I woke up immediately and i see all over my bed have lot of packs of biscuit and i was hugging boxes of ice lemon tea !

DARN!!

I didn't even realized how he had time to put all those food while i was sleeping and surely enough he succeed in making me wake up from my bed !

Even i was mad at him , i just admired his creativity .

Homie Guy

2010-12-01T07:08:00.001-08:00

Last night i just saw one great movie "Easy A" and i cant stop grinning just because of this one guy "Penn Bradley" .Owh heaven !
He's such a manly guy n i did wait till the end of the credits just to know his name . Sebab saya x tengok gossip girl hehehhe , and i cant figure out his name .
after that i search him on the google n bertambah la lagi OH MY GOD! he's such a MANLY MAN! I mean like all of his facial hair that makes him very manly and rugged type of guy ..haha its been always my type of a guy..

another specimen or exhibit that i can recall beside Penn Bradley is Mark Ruffalo
haa! he is another type rugged man that i Loved . I saw him once in "Just like Heaven " starring with Reese Witherspoon. He is such a Homie guy that everyone wants! Another movies that makes him such a lovable man in "13 going 30" aaaa so sweet .. he's offering candies sort like m&m to Jennifer Garner. Sweet!

p/s: can i put my hands up slowly and say I want them both ! heeee :)

from taiping with love

2010-12-01T04:59:00.000-08:00

dah lima hari duduk kampung ,
dengan takde internet connection
rase mcm kebas jee kepala otak
x buat ape-ape
hari ni barulah dapat internet
tpi same jer kebas jugak kepala otak heee
tgk lappy jer ..
baru 3 jam dah boring

haih
nasib baik mak tok panggil

iekaaa....
mai sini dok blajaq masak ngn mak tok ..

aku pun ape lagi
menjadi student culinary maktok yang pertama ! hehehe

iekaaa hang kacau ni haa mcm ni ..
jgn biaq dia berkumpol .. bagi sayuq ni jauh2..baru la cepat masak ..

aku pon buat la mcm ape yg maktok suruh ..
mase aku tgh kacau tuh tibe2
aku terpikir
memasak ni sama jer mcm buat production ..

haaa!
sama ..betul mmg same ..

sebelum nak masak
macam biasa la kite kene sediakan barang2 dulu
tumbuk bawang chili api ikan bilis pakai batu lesung ..
lepas tuh potong sayur ..
sediakan minyak sos oyster dan jugak garam
lepas dah sediakan bahan-bahannya
sama mcm buat production
kita sediakan props seblum shooting ..sama kan ..

lepas tuh ..barulah

action time
kita memasak ..
keluarkan kuali
bukak api
panaskan
taruk minyak
n terus kita tumis ..
haa
masa ni la yang pling penting
time memasak ni
kene pandai laa rase ape yang x cukup ..

sama jugak dgn masa
production..

kita keluarkan kamera
bukak tripod
setting baik2 punya
tgk location mane nak pakai ..
sediakan talent ..semua ..
n terus shoot!

akhir sekali
lepas tutup api
kita hidang dengan pinggan yang menawan
dan disantap bersama family ..
sama la jugak dengan production
kita santap video yang telah kita hasilkan tadi bersama family kita
kan same tuh ..
heeee ..

doink!!

mmg la bende yang berbeza tpi situasinya hampir sama ..
jadi aku perlu la menambah minat
terhadap memasak ni ..
sbb die nak sama jer dengan kita buat production
yey!

From now on , ieka akan cuba untuk menambah minat di dalam memasak!
lagi2 masak lauk2 kampung ..
lainlah aku kawin ngn mat saleh ..
barulah kene blaja masak
fortellini ,fetucinni ..aiks ni macm mamat italiano

hehehehe ..anyway guys
this is my another project with my frens
siapkan dalam masa seminggu cuz mmg x cukup masa
n i owe you guys one
aliah , huda n cicit! thnxx for making this idea to become real ..
loved you guys ..hope nnty kite boleh wat stop motion lagi !!
anyway tis is just amatur stop motion ..

http://www.mufors.org.my/road_reels_view.aspx?id=16f0c0f9-cad1-4f22-88c1-9998e86d650c

exam is over

2010-11-11T18:12:00.000-08:00

Yahoo
the sweet scent of Freedom ..
yeye.. final exam dah habis baru je smlm ..
hari ni nak buat ape eh?? hehehe mcm macam dalam kepala otak aku ni
but
i remember i was talking to dayah , nak blaja menjahit dgn die ..hehehe x main2 la
this is for real ..sbb beg koyak ..haha sbb tu rajin nak jahit ..
nnty alang-alang dah tahu jahit kan bgus ..jadilah perempuan melayu terakhir ok ..heheh

anyway remember the first day final exam
bgun awal punya nak jawab kenegaraan
padahal nak kata dah bace x la sangat , banyak lagi dasar-dasar yang x bace ..
tpi buat2 confident je nak jwb exam bru la rase bley jwb
ade la smpi termimpi mimpi bab federalisme tuh ..hehehe
pgi tuh bgun awal buat horlicks siap2 pki bju kurung
then trus pergi dewan besar dalam pukul 7.15 pgi

lepas tuh lepak la kat one coner of tempat duduk kat dewan tuh ..n keluarkan la nota
bace2 bace ...(mcm la masuk kan last minit) ..
then nak crik pen nak tulis la sket2 ..
carik2 dalam beg ....kuar semua barang yg sarat2 tuh ..tgk2 aku x bawak pencil box ..adoyai ..selambaa yaya je makcik sorunk ni ..
aku pun hahah gelabah la crik sape2 je ade kat sane ...
dah la grup ni aku x kenal sgt ..
ade la sorunk kwn ni .yg aku agak x familiar ..
ape lagi belasah je la ..jnji aku ade pen nak jwb kenegaraan
hanya sebatang pen aku menjawab soalan esei kenegaraan yang panjang berjela..

masa tuh aku terasa aku ni mcm budak nakal ..
yang selalu dtg exam bwk diri je... heheh
nasib nasib ..n now
im finally free ..yahoo
ape lagi ..to all my friends nak ajak lepak jum ....calling2 je ..

gambar pun dah tunjukkan kebebasan diri ...merdeka merdeka!!

p/s: even thought , exam dah habis but food poisoning strike to myself makes me unwell for my free day ..haiyyyhhhahh .. :(

MAViC 2010

2010-11-10T08:04:00.000-08:00

Merdeka Award Video Competition 2010

This is what I've been doing with all my friends studying broadcasting in UPM for the second and third semester.
I have so much fun and of course the knowledge that I've got is priceless.
Thank you to all have been such a great help in doing video production and also the award night.
It is one of a kind award night and believe me it is a student project.
Even student can do an award night prestigiously!
Congrats to all of us and also to the
winners.
Hope this winning would be a platform to all of us to be more better
in the present day .
syukran

sheer of joy

2010-11-09T19:16:00.000-08:00

An unexpected sheer of gift would make your day.. even a little

p/s :You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving.
Amy Carmichael

Normal kembali pabila MAViC sudah habis

2010-09-30T21:25:00.000-07:00

finally dapat jugak aku mengepost hari ni , after dah finish semua aktiviti MAViC . and congrates UPM kerana menang 3 anugerah dan jga UTTAR , UITM serta finalis-finalis yang telah berjaya ke smpi peringkat akhir. Semua yang telah diputuskan adalah berdasarkan penilaian juri-juri professional dan aku agak terkejut kerana kami titis-titis kealpaan kami menang tempat ke-2. Akhirnya segala usaha yang telah kami semua lakukan berhasil. Macam-macam yang berlaku sepanjang penggambaraan kami dan semuanya adalah hasil kerjasama kami bersama. Memang betul ckp orang bile kite ikhlas buat kerja dan tidak mengharapkan pembalasan , tuhan redhai kerja kita tuh. Jadi aku rase gembira gile wlaupun masa nak naik stage tuh agak cuak takut nak jatuh
al maklumlah dah biasa pump shoes tetibe je heels ..tinggi gile lak tuh ..bawak je la bersabar. Nasib baik si David teo boleh buat lawak lagi kat atas stage x de la aku muke cuak sgt .. hehhe anyway just wanna say tq for all the support lecturer , student , kwn2 yang sllu je paham keadaan aku ni ..
n kalau korunk nak tgk video titis-titis kealpaan nntykan di astro ria 15 oktber pukul berape x tau tpi tggu je la promo dah keluar dah . or just search kat fb merdeka award vdeo competition group kat situ ade video2 para finalis.

pesanan khidmat masyarakat

2010-08-10T21:47:00.001-07:00

Untuk menjalani ibadah puasa dengan lebih afdal lagi kita semua digalakkan untuk memohon maaf kepada insan-insan yang pernah menjadi mangsa kita. Mana x nyer kalau kita senyum kat org tuh dan orang itu tidak membalas senyuman kita , kita pulak membuat andaian orang itu sombong nak mampus sedangkan dia rabun jauh x nampak kita. Kalau orang tuh pandang pelik kat kita , kita pulak ckp orang tu nak carik gaduh ngn kita sedangkan die tgok lama sbb baju kita lawa ker , beg lawa ker ataupun kita yang lawa. :) ahaks Kalau lecturer menegur kita dan memarahi kita , kita anggap pulak cikgu tu x berhati perut , kejam. Sedangkan kita perlu melihat kembali apa kesalahan kita , mengapa kita di tegur pada mulanya.Kalau mintak pinjam duit pada kawan , kawan x bagi , kita pulak kata kat orang lain die kedekut sedangkan dia pun tiada duit dan datang dari keluarga yang susah.

Inilah kesemua pemikiran yang sempit yang hanya mengikat kita , pergi mane2 pun x dapat kemajuan mcm orang penang kata pi mai pi mai tang tu gak!
Manusia seperti ini, yang suka membuat andaian awal adalah insan yang cepat menghadapi kemurungan mana x nye Kajian pakar otak pun menunjukkan bahawa orang yg suka bersangka buruk boleh menyebabkan orang itu cepat jatuh sakit. Ini kerana kemurungan berkaitan dengan sistem ketahanan badan.
Oleh yang demikian kita perlulah membuang tanggapan negatif dan berfikir dahulu mengapa sesuatu benda boleh jadi begitu dan bukanlah hanya membuat andaian awal serta bersangka buruk dan pada masa yang sama kita jugaboleh menjaga tubuh badan sihat ini pemberian yang Esa.

Jadi ,jomlah kita semua memulakan amalan berfikiran positif dan baik dan berhentilah bersangka buruk tanpa bertanya akan hal sebenar di bulan ramadhan ini. Kan dah elok tuh.Lagi satu kalau kita sedar kawan kita ni banyak bersangka buruk , kita perlulah menegur dia kerana kita juga lama kelamaan akan terpengaruh dengan sangkaan buruk dia itu. X pasal -pasal dah bergaduh sane sini. Yang penting ksesemua konflik yang kita hadapi akan dapat diatasi jika niat kita yang benar dan dibawak berbincang.
Moga-moga ramadhan tahun ini akan dapat di laksanakan dengan seelok2nya dan diredhai Allah. Itu sahaja daripada aku dan diharap pesanan ini dapat membuka minda korunk semua. Insyallah.

Gambar saje2 dah penat edit tuh yg nak taruk gak. hahaa

p/s: Gembira hati ini apabila sahur pertama ku dijamu dengan ayam masak merah n rebung masak lemak. Terima kasih sgt2 sbb susah2 je dtg ke UPM ni. <3 lain kali bawak la satay pulak yer ..mcm teringin jer ..hahahaa

Titis-titis Kealpaan

2010-08-07T09:57:00.000-07:00

credits to muhammad yusri aka my cicit for the lovely poster
and thnx everyone for make it real! love you all muahx

aku belajar

2010-08-07T05:31:00.000-07:00

sudah 3 minggu aku start semester tpi ape pun x buat ... aku memerlukan wake up call
sbb next next week dah nak exam dan yg paling penting puasa. allhamdulillah editing dah siap poster pun dah siap . jadi tanggungjawab aku sudah habis cume minggu hadapan kene prepare untuk present the video.

pejam celik pejam celik ..
banyak bende berlaku dlm hidup aku dan aku bersyukur kepada tuhan kerana memberikan aku peringatan serta pengajaran dalam hidup. nampaknya dalam hidup ni bukan senang untuk aku percaya kepada orang dan aku belajar semua itu.dan aku belajar perkataan ' mementingkan diri ' bukanlah negatif shj seperti yang kita sume sangkakan. rupa rupanya bende tuh adalah keperluan untuk survival hidup kita. jadi aku pikir lepas ni aku kene bertindak mementingkan diri wlaupun aku tidak begitu selama ini.

inilah kehidupan
kita belajar.

yang aku tahu
dalam hidup ni kita kene sayang family kite sbb diorg lah yang akan bg support kepada kita walau apa pun yang terjadi . jadi aku akan lebih menyayangi mereka !! wlpun bergaduh dan sentiasa bercakaran haih ...

kepada org ramai
ini bukan luahan hati sedih atau pilu ke apa cume pandangan hidup aku selepas apa yg berlaku dlm hidup aku.

7/8/2010

p/s: gmbr ni semmgnya mengingatkan aku akan family aku yang liar semacam. ada beruang , ada singa , ada kuda belang , ada mentadak dan ada musang. ( love u guys)

tq n tq

2010-07-16T12:06:00.000-07:00

tq for being beside me till now on.

tq for granting my wish to meet my mr.penguin.

tq for this self portrait pictures.

tq for this lovely day.

welcome back papa

2010-07-16T02:12:00.000-07:00

It was 5 am in the morning , suddenly mama wake me up from my sleep. She was like " ika cepat la bangun nnty nak sampi pukul berapa?" And macam biasa I try my best to wake up from my bed tpi x dapat jugak nak bangun . And in distant i heard her voice waking up my sister n brother. It wasn't easy for us to wake up at this early hours and we were all like dragging our feet to the bathroom.

I was squinting my eye and I saw she was all dressed up with a lil bit of make up and perfume and she was ready to go. Usually , she didn't even bother to put her bedak pun and it is a funny moment because she was very eager to pick up my dad at the airport.She was like fussy semacam suruh kitrg bgun cepat2 pergi mandi and we were all like "relax ar ma". But we all know how excited she is nak smbut papa balik. dah rindu la kan.

We finally made it to the airport at 5.45 am and we waited anxiously for our dad. Eventhough we were all like yawning x habis2 and waited for about more than 15 minutes but it is doesn't matter when we saw our dad have arrived safely back home.
and one thing i know that my mum loved my dad very much and we were all missed him after one month being apart.

p/s: at this time ,we wEre all missed ayip n nina for not being here. Can't wait for raya to have family gathering.
btw papa is having his long , long, long sleep and he sleep like a whale. hahaha Love you papa.

13/7/10

2010-07-13T08:07:00.000-07:00

jaga hati org , tapi hati ni siapa nak jaga ?

penat la . boleh x ieka hilang sekejap.

perlukan tidur , nak hilangkan sakit tekak

sbb air mata dah penat mengalir.

perlukan mama , sbb tgk mama senyum jer dah rase gembira ,

walaupun hati ni dah rase mcm mcm.

Ya allah tabahkanlah hamba mu ini .

mr.penguin

2010-06-18T07:28:00.000-07:00

how could u not fall in love with those creatures. sungguh comel .

i used to have a dream bout penguin. I had landed on north pole and then there is one penguin come rushing to me and hug me.Its like a baby come to his mama. after i woke up i feel so happy and i excited to meet them.
thts y smpi skrg rase nak gi zoo negara lagi kalo lah ade penguin kat situ . hurm siape la nak bwk ?? ngeee

so cute kan??

i wish i could hug them betul2. mesti sejuk kan?

p/s: i had untold story bout my childhood that related to penguin. thats y i love penguin. heheh

may and june entries..

2010-06-13T09:45:00.000-07:00

well hello ,

lame x update blog sume gara-gara my laptop masuk virus
kuar porno2 hambek ko ....terus aku x sentuh laptop aku

btw this is what i did for about more than two months.

1)I had the oppurtunities to wear sari and i am so excited over it. and we had done a lil bit tranformation to indian traditional dress by wearing tudung. hey sape kate pki tudung x leh pki sari. and here we are tadaa..

2)we went to temerloh ,pahang nak crik ikan patin. We done a documentary on ikan patin and also pekan sehari at temerloh. The end of the trip we were rewarded ikan patin masak tempoyak , sungguh sedap and a big thanks to fara’s family.

3)Yey , kak nina balik Malaysia and we were all went to penang for a short break. What a paradise , we were all had fun there especially makan! Yey! And also water sport! Banana boat ade , jetski ade then yg paling seronok naik parachute up up in the air!

4) went for tokio hotel concert thnx to ajeed . im not into tokio hotel but finally i know the song that i always sang in highschool “ monsoon” is act their song. Lol. Went to rtmnyer concert just nak tgk faizal tahir. Omg suke sgt die . bleh die nyanyikan selamat malam untuk saya??

5)Yey I’ve been to KWN which is Kid Witness News by Panasonic. Its not that i am a participant but i am a facilitator for the event.(tpi mcm layak jer jadi peserta) . Meet lots of cute kids and new friends. Plus spending time with seniors are superb! Hearts them.

5) I had been very busy with MAVIC stuff . MAVIC (Merdeka Award Video Competition) org dah cuti sem aku still lagi in UPM buat kerje. What can i do , kitrg sume berkorban for the sake of our course. Dah kate BROAD! So act like one la.

6) Fara n I went to Johor for as’s engagement with fahmi. Yey ! I felt happy for them. Dapat jugak aku merasa membuat hantaran. Nak tunggu for my bro lambt lagi la john! Huhuhu wish my engagement day would be lovely as asny’s.

7) Now im having my short holiday i mean really short. A week duduk rumah mane la nak cukup sbb Next week , we were all going to have a shooting in pahang. Hope our products will turn out fine. Anyway congrats to ten listed winners for MAVIC and go go! UPM!

P/s: Dear papa , please take care of yourself there in amazon. Mama are freaking worried of you even she looks relax. Anyway Love you.

It is like a fairy tales.

2010-06-12T10:29:00.002-07:00

Its nearly 2 am in the morning and I am searching for my musical carousel at amazon. argh!! nak sgt musical carousel .
I've been dreaming on to have it dri dulu lagi.
I know it sound really silly for 20 years girl,who wanting to have kiddos stuff but it is actually my dream.
Its like, Having those musical carousel make me feel close to my own fairy tales.

I can imagine , every night before I dozed to my sleep, I will listen to the lovely mozart and see those beautiful horses spinning around gently while I lay down at my bed.
Slowly with the music on , I will be making into my dream.
I will be riding a beautiful horse at the open green field and there would be a prince charming with a black horse come to get me.
Then we went for a walk at the riverbank.From there I know he is the one , who will make my day full of shine even sorrow comes.
After a few weeks , he finally proposed me and we get married in the castle.
The most lovely part is when after a few years we were rewarded to have four most beautiful children...

Aww so much of fairy tales ieka!! but in the real world there is no such things a prince with horses.... :(

but at least , there is nothing wrong to have those imagination as long as it make you happy.

p/s: sorry for the lovey dovey mood. I had getting some of it after asny and fahmi engagement session.Anyway Congratulations Hasnidah Hassan and Fahmi may both of you will be the sweetest couple ever!

Love
Ieka.

bajet gler

2010-04-27T22:22:00.000-07:00

I've got sms from es , pelik jer sms die nak tanye sumthing
then tanye la y?

rupe2 nyer die notice tht i kuar kosmo ari ni..
huhuhu

siyes gelabah kan minah ni
hahah

AAK!

nak tau lebih lnjut but the artikel
ni url nyer ..

http://www.kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2010&dt=0427&pub=Kosmo&sec=GenK&pg=gk_07.htm

gelabah dol minah ni .

2010-04-26T01:28:00.000-07:00

hati kini dah terisi :)

mesti semua kate aku gelabah kan ..
tpi peduli ape aku ..
nak post , post je la.

hahahah

p/s: (hush)
The best thing about me is you :)

A bad 'A**' Friends

2010-04-22T03:38:00.000-07:00

A bad 'A**' friends

Life is not thrilled for us until we meet bad 'A**' friends ! so shall i made a list of criteria for them?? huhuhu :)

The criteria for the award "Bad 'A**' Friends are :

1) when it comes to homework or notes , they are the first one who will be smiling and grinning to us for copying work ! ( pemalas nye org)

2) they are the one who always take advantages of a person who is weak. who can't said NO and always obey orders from them. ( suke pijak kepala la)

3) A friend who never ever and EVER! remember what did we do for them! makan kenyang lepas tuh lupAAA!

4) A friend who never said SORRY as if they never do any wrong. (muke x bersalah ..)

5)A friend who never take care of our feelings .. i mean NEVER!!!!!!! ( nak kite je jage feel die )( kitenyer?? x kesah)

6) A friend who never value the sense of friendship and didn't care of anything problem rising. ( egonye terlampau smpi x heran kat kwn hampeh ..)

the list will be go on and on but it would never be enough ..

However , a bad 'A**' friends are important in our life as we will meet a true friendship after going through them first..

thus you may all say thanks to them and also
BUHBBYE!
cuz they are all my last memory that ain't going to be back !

p/s: this post is not related to anyone but it is just my own personal thought of life...

another p/s: lately I've been very busy posting blog pun dah jarang..( gomenasai) huhuhu btw miss home badly.:(

fara , as n ika.
luv them :)

a merry go round ride

2010-03-04T17:39:00.000-08:00

Often I’m having a syndrome. A syndrome didn’t make any harm to me or others. But it is just sense of content in me. I love to have that syndrome even though I was flying in the air, smiling alone, no one is there to bother me and in the end it is just a dream.

Like;

I was walking with my friends and suddenly, I stopped and they were all looking at me. I was smiling alone and ‘pop’ me already in Europe or somewhere in a region which have DISNEYLAND. HAHAHAHAA

I’m having an image which in the right hand I’m having a cotton candy and the left hand I was hugging a pole. Merry go round pole and with a big smile I’m having the greatest day of my life. Funny kan?

My friends; they were all wonder why I am standing still and grinning all by myself. Yet I just keep it to myself because it is nice to have that syndrome just all by my own. :)

So when you are beside me, then you will know when ieka is having that kind of syndrome. lol

ps: to find my own marshall it is not hard as it seem but it is all back to myself. to open or to close it up. im still thinking. :)

When Facebook - no fun..

2010-02-21T18:19:00.000-08:00

There are certain times when facebook start to bored me. hahah (maybe is like a shocking statement) but yeah it is true.

The time : when no left notifications to be check , any friends request or any messages to be read , or i felt very lazy to post any status .. then i started to think facebook is really boring... hahaha ..

so i started do something else

guess what ??

i went for food hunting ..lol ( no wonder i was called mok)

see!

how are we been tempted by the melting choc.

which will made me ..become more hungry and tempted!

Buterscotch and choco chip cakes.

hehehe :)

p/s: dear papa i am still waiting on the electronic weighing machine ..cuz i've been dreaming on baking apple pie with mama. :) cepat la orderr.. machine tuh ..huhuh

What if ?

2010-02-15T19:22:00.001-08:00

what if ?

I was Lily?
There would be ,my own Marshall waiting in our most comfy couch.

What if?

I was Bella?
There would be my Edward waiting in school cafeteria..for our lunch time together.

What if ?

I was Meredith?
There would be McDreamy waiting for me after his long hour operation...
and then, together we went back home .. :)

and what if ??

I am not one of them??
not even a slight chance to be like them?

What if I am ted , Jacob or Christina?

Who are still waiting for their story to be written on ,to be continue?
to be created... hurm sigh :(

I guess , waiting is the only options
dear.

( our pic in wang kelian :fara , sob , wana fakhri and ieka)

ps: we had fun in perlis nearly fun as we are. coming up i'll be posting up pics in bukit tinggi trip.

my only elder brother

2010-01-27T09:27:00.000-08:00

die slalu jer skitkan ati aku , suke je menganggu waktu aku senang. lagi2 waktu aku tgh tgk tv..
aku nak tgk RIA die sibok la amik remote control tukar mythbuster . ( nsib baik boleh layan mythbuster suke 2)

die suke jer kate aku x pandai masak sdngkan aku masak punye la sedap masak lemak ayam , wanah bantai makan licin .. . tpi die x mo sentuh pon sbbnye alasan die takut sakit perut. chitt!

die suke jer pancut air kat muke aku ..bile time aku tgh sedapppp... melayan mimpi die dtg ke bilik ku dgn membawa air pancut untuk iron strika tuh lalu memercik ke muka ku ..chet!!!!!!
(bagila chance bukan sng nak tdo smpi kul 1ptg) mentang2 aa die bgun awal gi keje
hampeh

die suke jer crik gado ngn aku ..tanpe alasan.. die korek hidung n crik aku .. hampehh ..terpaksela aku melarikan dri di dalam rumah yg x seberape besar tuh..

die suke jerr mencubit aku tanpe motip ..rasenye sebb die geram tgk adik die yg comel sgt kott hahaha ( okeh , cukup ieka jgn over). da la cubitan die x bleh tahan ..nyer sedaooop... akhirnya aku menjerit n membalas cubitannyer skali dgn pukulan yg begitu sedaaaooopp skali

akhir sekali

die sesuke jer memberi gelaran gemuk kat aku n beruang .. chit!! hampehnyer abg
cube la pkir ..sesedap name diberi oleh rosnie othman ditukar nyer ke name haiwan
x betul x betul ...

akhirnya ..

aku pown dgn bangge nyer memanggilnyer musang

sbb die mmg layak pown jadi musang

tgk aa tuh dah keluar dah ..front page national geographic ..
hahahaha
ko mmg terhebat laa
abg boy!!

p/s: azi ,ko nak tgk abg aku seorg musang ...ni la diee..

excited MAKSIMA

2010-01-20T20:01:00.000-08:00

wink :) i love him

syg abg maxis

2010-01-13T03:24:00.000-08:00

BROADBAND AKU DAH ELOK BLIK!!!

sekian, terima kasih.

p/s: saya sgt gembira ari ini jadi saya nak mkn byk. :)

Bile first time ko-ko mcm ni la jadinye :

2010-01-10T02:46:00.000-08:00

bajet 2010 nak kurus dgn tennis. huhauhauha sdgkan tangan aku akan membesar mcm rafael nadal. huhuhuh dan perut aku akan mengelebeh bagaikan biggest loser asia.

Cruising in Phnom Penh

2010-01-08T03:33:00.000-08:00

My road trip in Cambodia.
Our day in Cambodia is superb with our tour guide help , Mr . Pisey.
We went to Killing Field , s-21 ,Russian Market , Royal Palace and also boat cruising at Mekong River.
We started our sight-seeing with S-21 Genocidal place , which is an old-school that been used for killing n torturing people.
It is one of Pol-Pot actions under the Khmer Rouge Regime.
The school were divided into 4 buildings and we had to go through the all 4 buildings to see the killing scene.
They done lot of cruel ways just to torture innocent people till their death. sgt kejam :( (The place was so creepy and i was in luck to get one haunted picture.(it is in my facebook)
But been there had me realized one thing: sungguh sukar menjadi orang zaman dahulu.
After a whole day Mr. Pisey showed us around Phnom Penh , we were rewarded by this special view while we were on cruise.

menawankan? semua nyer kuasa Allah.

ps: i will be back to perlis next week. huhuhu nak jumpe abg zul. hhohohoohoh
btw UniMap here i come.

Permulaan sem ke-DUA

2010-01-06T11:45:00.000-08:00

Dah dua minggu class start , tapi aku rase mcm selenge agi.
entah? mane pi tah semangat aku untuk study.
Semua subject nampak mcm berat je dgn MGM lagi 4 kredit kowt! dgn penulisan skrip agi. bi nyer keje belambak!
fuhh! bile la ?
aku nak rise up?? entahlah?
nak kene lempang dlu kot bru sedar budak nih!

tapi .... aku

semangat gile time kelas thailand .
hohohoo
itulah subjek yg aku tunggu selama nih!
wlaupon aku bru level 1 tpi aku dah rase syiok!
hahahah
ape ape pown
ieka masih mencari semangat nyer yg melesap ke mana entah!

ps:dalam minggu ni jer
dah ade 3 org asing ( x kenal aa )kate aku org kelantan!
yes! nampknye aku semakin pandai bertutur bahasa kelate!!! hohooo
hebat!

second ps: btw i already know the girl who is closed to fahrin.it is my senior sob :( weeps weeps. hope the best for them.

Mission Possible aku!

2010-01-02T21:18:00.000-08:00

Terbaru, jejaka (Fahrin Ahmad) yang menjaga penampilan dengan gaya metroseksualnya dikatakan intim dengan seorang pelajar jurusan komunikasi dari Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM).
harian metro online

Kini aku dah set dah azam bru aku.

1) aku nak tahu siapakah pelajar yg bersangkut paut dgn Fahrin Ahmad!
2) entah2 senior aku!
3) aku akan baik2 dgn pelajar tu supaya aku dpt kwn ngn Fahrin Ahmad
3) Kini aku akan jadi pakguard siang dan malam fakulti bahasa moden n komunikasi
sebb ade peluang untuk aku terserempak dgn fahrin ahmad
4) aku pown akan suruh rakan2 aku memasang mata mereka yg sgt power untuk berjaga2
untuk aku

ps/ kalo si fahrin bace bende ni mestilah die org pertama yg lari dri aku..
huhauhaauhauhua
nota dlm diri n hati :ieka tlglaa ko mcm hampeh!

To be more better for our new year :)

2009-12-30T20:52:00.000-08:00

A New Year Eve’s ~ just few hours to 2010

Gosh time really gone fast. Once second I was a high school kid and now I am a college student. Argh , cepatnye!

Hurm, I wonder what has been happening in my life for a year in 2009.
Lets us see ~

1) My matriculation grades are not so great and can’t be proud off and I just changed my whole education plan, by choosing mass communication rather than engineering. ( membuatkan semua org pening dgn pilihan aku especially my dad)

2)I was officially called by my mum miss hilang barang as I’ve lost so many things throughout one year. Nokia hand phone, motorolla battery charger, my meal plan card worth about RM 100 and recently golden ring that were given by my mum. (Dear mommy hope you didn’t know about this)

What more?

3) And yes ! The most sad and depressing story ever. I didn’t get my driving license yet! Yet it means that I will get it one day insyallah. Hohohoho :)

4) I meet many artists on this year especially to be mentioned here is I meet Fahrin Ahmad in 2009! I LOVE him! And not to be mentioned is Awal Shaari , tidak berbangge pown jumpe die.sorry nina

5) Even though I am a klutz like always losing stuff. But one thing that I can be proud at is I took my brother challenges to go Japan on my own. I took his dare and I travel there by myself hehehe practically not all alone actually, my sister study there. But I have to survive on my own in Haneda Airport.

6) In 2009 also , I have to say goodbye to the one person , the one that the most precious Nurazfalina Azura binti Abdul Aziz . hhoohoo aiyo! Makcik miss you laa! Really syg u!

7) In June 2009, I have met fabulous person in UPM. They are all my syg kak dyl , wanah , fara , Bennie , and Sob. You guys really rock my world. And indeed x lupe jugak all my friends that been all along with me. Thank you Alan , Faten ,Amir , Aswad , Tkay and many more.

And lastly ,

8) I was a food lover and I think my cooking skills are getting better and better. Wish in 2010 I will become an expert like my mum . :)

I making this list cuz I know my 2009 going to be end and I was hoping my 2010 will become better and better.

Like my lecturer have said: tomorrow is better than today. And today is better than yesterday.

So Lets us all pray that 2010 will be much more better for us.
Amin.

benci!

2009-12-23T09:21:00.000-08:00

ari ni aku sedih .

sllunye i will not posted up blog pasal feeling2 nih . but x tahu kenape
nak lepas sedih kat sini.

monolog dlmn aku :

"aku sedar sape dri aku ni x seberape."
"tpi jaga la hati perasaan aku yg kecik nih. "
" jgn smpi buat aku benci seseorg."
"aku ngaku aku mmg snsitif."
"jadi jagalah mulut ko supaya aku xkan benci ko."

argh benci !

Happy birthday to me :)

2009-12-10T01:19:00.000-08:00

I am nineteen officially tomorrow but that didn't make me feel glad .Hurm i wonder why? A birthday? sigh xD hahaah

I mean that doesn't even make any difference. It is like adding one year to your age and you didn't even realized that you are getting older and older.Hurm A birthday? sigh xD

Supposedly , there should be one big smile on my faces but instead of smiling I am brooding over something that i do not know and I can't think logically what is wrong with myself. It is like I'm confused over nothing. haha Hurm sigh xD

Was it is all about? aging process? expectations? or it is about freaking attentions ? ah I don't know or maybe it is about my examination result would be coming out at the exactly the same date of my birthday date? LOL

Reality is...

Deep inside myself i always know , it is a normal feeling to be some kind of crazy person wondering all alone what is wrong of yourself when your birthday is around.

Maybe it is normal for everyone? ahaha

Maybe everyone are having the same phase likes me ,i mean confused over nothing just because it is a birthday. hhohooho

But what the heck ? I am thinking OVER this stuff , it doesn't even matter ! Because the day of my birthday , it would be totally rewarding just to get a single birthday wish from the person that I loved.

That is how birthday works out. Simple as it seems.

Birthday is the day we are being appreciated by people who loves us and around us.

The day that we should be happy because everyone are happy for us and yet we all should be grateful for having chances to know that these people loves us and cares for us.

and we should be thank you Allah for that. and really grateful for that.

p/s: last few years at my adolescent years i always done a birthday wishes list just to check who does remember my birthday.. silly as it seems. but now it doesn't even matter.

Mekong Trip Day 3 , 4 and 5

2009-12-01T08:36:00.000-08:00

24th November 2009

6.00 am- Wake up as usual and prepared ourselves for breakfast.

7.00 am- Breakfast at the hotel. As usual our only menu is bread with jam and orange juice. Itu je yang halal to eat.

8.30 am- After I had breakfast, kak nat and I walk along the beachside just to fill up our time. In Chaam , they only focused on tourism as I could see lot of mat saleh all around Chaam. The beach was so beautiful, clean and I could feel the sea breeze and yet it does make me calm. After 5 minutes done some photography, my father called me up for group photo session.

This is Chaam!

mama n papa.

along the road in chaam , locals sells arts stuff made by shell

luvly couplee !

9.28 am- We depart from Chaam to our next destination that is Chanthaburi. The distance is about 404 kilometer ahead. Uncle Dahlan, did not join us in the convoy, because he will be picking up uncle Hamid at the Survanabhumi Airport in Bangkok.

On our way to Chanthaburi , we passed through Bangkok City , which is capital city of Thailand . I loved Bangkok as it reminded me to KL , but their traffic are worst especially on the morning and evening.

Plus, their highway are so memeningkan and terlampau banyak. We were all worried how are we going to escaped from Bangkok highway. Right now we are heading to Chanthaburi and we need to find the nearest town next to Chanthaburi.
There are many signboards and road aheads, we have to decide which road should we take.

Nasib baik, we found a pattaya-chonburi signboard which are heading to Chanthaburi the right directions. Or not, we will pusing around the whole Bangkok.
3.30 pm- Finally we , arrived at Chanthaburi as planned. Check in for the hotel, New Travel Lodge hotel and have a rest.

5.30pm- We went on to see Gems Market in the town as it is their specialities. Unfortunately, their working hours are only till 5.00pm and on weekends. But Uncle Rashid just went on knocked one door of the shops and they are willing to open up. Boleh la dapat la tengok gems cntik2 , but it does suited to their prices. It could take up till thousands ringgit. Mahal la , x mampu just tgk je.
After dinner , we directly went off to sleep. As the hotel have wifi I could online till 2 am. Then x larat , terus tido.

25th November 2009

6.00 am- Wake up early in the morning and get ready for breakfast.

7.00am – Breakfast

8.00am- Convoys meeting and briefing by Uncle Hamid.

9.18am- The last day we stayed in Thailand, because we will be entering Cambodia by Khong Yai Border . It is about 150 kilometres from Chathaburi and there would be Cambodian tour agent waiting for us.

11.15 pm- We already arrived at the border and need to settle up passports and others. There is one Cambodian kid looks like almost 9 years old approaching us and talk to us. It looks like he is one of Cambodian Immigration workers. He was the one who show us, where we supposed settle up our passport and also car insurance. I am impressed when I look at that kid. He can speak in English very fluent and also very berani.

1.00 pm- After we had settled up our immigration process, we meet up with our tour agent that is Mr.Pisai. He will be showing us around Cambodia. Cambodia is not totally developed like Malaysia. Not all of their roads are well built. There are still jalan tanah merah and there are lots of batu2 on the road. Rumah-rumah kat sini banyak rumah kampong and sangat la daif. To be compared with Malaysia, there are huge gaps between them. I am so grateful for being Malaysian and I know that our ministry have done a lot for our country especially on dasar-dasar ekonomi yang banyak merapatkan jurang antara miskin dan kaya. ( hebat kowt sej)

Cambodia get their independence on 1953 which is 4 years early than Malaysia but because of the Khmer Rouge ruling and Pol Pot actions, the destruction in Cambodia can’t be repaired immediately. In Cambodia , yg kaya mmg la sgt kaya , bawak Lexus and Rexton but for miskin sgtlah miskin. Kids running around and walking without slippers, semua rumah hanya pakai kayu and atap zink.

The surrounding mmglah sangat kesian but our hotel didn’t reflected the surrounding. We stayed in Koh Kong Resort Hotel. It look so beautiful and it looks like a big mansion up hill in Italy . It doesn’t show the real Cambodia. It looks so luxurious with the architecture and the design.

Plus , there was beach along the hotel.

Our lunch were sponsored by ustaz perkampungan islam in Cambodia. After lunch , mama papa , kak nat and I jalan-jalan along the beach. We found out that our hotel have casino and also duty free. Sebenarnya hati ku teringin nak masuk casino just nak tgk je . Does it the same like in tv’s? hohoho then I ask my dad permission and he warned me jgn cube sekali pon. Hohoho Kat Malaysia x bleh masuk hooho so I grab this opportunity , hooho dapatlah tgk game die , roulette , black jack , jack pot … Tapi die x bgi tangkap gmbr tuh yg rugi. But whatever it is I know it is so membazir (sgt2).

7.15 pm- That night , we had dinner at perkampungan orang islam at Koh Kong. They welcomed us with their warmth smile. I feel comfortable being there. Our menu is : udang rebus , ikan goreng , sayur udang and also their special homemade sauce(sgt sedap / chengen)
Chengen: sdp in Cambodia

26th November 2009

6.00 am- Wake up

7.00 am- Breakfast

8.00 am- Group meeting/ briefing by Mr. Pisai , our tour guide in Cambodia and also uncle Hamid. Mr Pisai told us short briefs about Cambodia.
9.00 am- We depart to Sihanoukville , also beach town in Cambodia. It is about 400 km from Koh Kong. Mr Pisai is coming with us and we were also escorted by police for our own security.Before we check in into the hotel, we visited another perkampungan orang islam di Sihanoukville. Kompong Ochrov , Prav Nup , Kompong Som Cambodia is the place where we want to do the qurban.

1.30 pm- We arrived at the Kampong and we had our lunch at there. The dishes were prepared by women while the male serve us the food. The menu : sayur cili bodo with meat , daging goreng , sup daging and also spicy sauce so yummy. We had our zohor n asar prayer at there .

4.30 pm- We already arrived at Sihanouk Ville and we went on city tour. First stop , Mr. Pisai brought us to their famous port but I can’t hardly remember the name of the port because it looks the same like the one we have uhuhu port klang. And then , he brought us to perkampungan nelayan and Uncle Rashid and Uncle Ali belanja we all fresh crab and udang for our dinner nnti.
After that , we went straight to our hotel , Golden Sand Hotel.

6.45 pm- After maghrib prayer , we all went on for our seafood dinner. There are lots lots of crabs and udang also big snapper fish. I couldn’t take pictures of the dinner as my hand already digging on the food. But trusted me it is really good. the fish sauce kick ass tuh !! We were all full and enjoyed our food!
After that we went back to our hotel for sleep!

Mekong Trip Day 1 and 2

2009-11-24T08:12:00.000-08:00

As I promised you guys, I will be posting about my Mekong journey expeditions. This is my first entry for this post and currently, I’m in a car on journey for our second destination Chaam which is 200 kilometers from Bangkok. There would be lot of pictures and also some info about our expeditions, so enjoy while reading this blog.

22 November 2009
1.00pm- All convoys gathered at my kampong in Taping for our lunch. Maktok have prepared lunch for us and it was really tasty. Menu for today are kari puyuh , kari daging, kerang rebus, ikan cencaru goreng, and sambal belacan( benda wajib). Huhuhuhu.

2.45pm- After we had our prayer, we depart from Taiping and papa (En. Ghazi) as convoy leader followed by Uncle Dahlan , Uncle Hassan and Uncle Ali. Uncle Rashid will be joining us in Hatyai for the next morning. Our next destination is Hatyai which is 256 kilometer from Taiping. All cars were equipped with GPS and also wireless mobile radio to make our journey become easier.

6.00 pm- We arrived at Sadao Immigration, Thailand and all driver and passengers need to settle up their passport clearance.

7.30 pm- About 200 km from Sadao is Hatyai and we’re staying at New Season hotel. After we check in, we rushed down to Hamid Restaurant for makan!!

8.30 pm- After makan , it is time for me to shop, I drag along Kak Natrah , my hotelroomate to my favourite spot for shopping that is Lee Garden Complex . It is similar to Sg.Wang for me  because I could get cute shoes, bangles, watches and vintage handbags at there at the lowest price. One shoes’s brand that I really love to buy at there is ‘Belongse’ and the shoes price starting with 199 baht which is RM 19.90. Kak Natrah had bought cute chocolate which have alphabet initial on it for her siblings.

This is cute chocolate with name on it. Ten baht each.

10.00pm- After that we were all lepak at our favorite stall for nasi lemak and ‘teh dangdut’. We called it teh dangdut as it can make movement as we stir it. The tea taste like our own the tarik la. Im having roti pisang and pulut manga. While, auntie ani having pulut durian.

tarik bang!! jgn x tarik..

pulut mangga with santan

roti pisang owhh my fav!

this is tea dangdut!! kak nat with me

11.30 pm- we head back to our hotel and dozed off to sleep as we will be having long journey the next day.

23 November 2009

gambor for second day!! hohoo capub jap

6am- Wake up early morning , get ready for breakfast. It was so cold that morning as rain did never stop from last night. My dad told me , it had been a week since rain started . After that Kak Natrah and I waited for our parents at the hotel lobby.

8.00 am- Breakfast

9.12 am - We started rolling from Hatyai to Chaam which we have another 780 km to go. After few minutes exit to Pathalung highway, we were all stunned by a huge flood over there. I could see ,kids were swimming and houses were flooded by water. The water level is like 4 feet tall and our tires had sunk a bit. We decided to cross the road as our journey had long way to go. My father car were behind lorry’s back and we were lucky as lorry helped us a lot waded through the water.

On the radio , Uncle Hassan informed us that water slowly filling in his car. Basah carpet. At that moment , all of us scared if we will get stranded and enjin would mati. My mum recite any prayer that could give us any strength and i was recording the whole situation there.

Finally , after ten minutes waded through the water , we were all safe and stop at the roadside , waiting for uncle Rashid to come over from Changlun. We were all hope the best for him to get here.

siyes cuak gile time nihh

10.00 pm- After hours driving , we made it to our destination , Chaam. Our hotel is Golden Beach Hotel. Chaam is a beach town and popular among tourist. We arrived a lil bit late and went of to sleep.

mama n papa

kak nat with her mocha iced!

wait for another post guys ..

semester breaks

2009-11-19T06:39:00.000-08:00

I was eager to end up my first semester so that i could get a temporary job during my semester break.I really need money for my shopping severe hahaha :)) dugh!!

But My wish were just flew away when my dad told me that i would be follow him on a trip.

As usual, every year my father would organize an 4x4 expedition trip (MEKONG EXPEDITION 3) to south east Asian countries and for this year i will be away for 17 days to four countries : Thailand , Vietnam , Cambodia and Laos.

My favorite 2 places that i used to go is in Laos that is Xiang Huang and Champasak. The weather was so cold and romantic. huhuhu

I really love that place until i decided they are my honeymoon destination. berangan kene lebeh ..but

Tomorrow i will depart from kl and the bored doom will start to spreads all over by body and mind. hohoh x tau nak buat ape dlm kereta. :)

I plan to read the twilight saga and also to finish up how i meet your mother series .hhohoho hope the plan will not make me bored.

So , i will be posting up, lots of pictures from the expedition to my other post.

see ya later ...

abgku seorg musang

2009-11-19T03:04:00.000-08:00

I've always have a fight with my brother whenever I came back home. He's in the late twenties but he is childish in certain ways .

I mean Who would pick his nose and come after you , just to scare you off?

or Who would spend almost 24 hours of their time just to play games ?

and he is such a pain in the ass for me ( jgn mara bgboy) like :

He would literally called up my name just to make me angry and yes he called me gemuk.The latest nickname were given to me is beruang! and i would called him back musang!

Oh my god !
I dunno where does he get the idea. I was so mad at first, when i heard him called me up beruang. But after hearing it like everydays, I'll get used to it.

I always thought that he's kind of a brother that didn't care anything else other than his pancing or games but one thing i really wronged about him. He do cares bout us (family).

One night i was begging for him to blanje me hohoho :)
mestilah kene pau

Even though i know the answer is boleh blah but ape salahnye x rugi pown.

And at the time i really need money to buy new shoes for annual dinner held by UPM.

ieka :"boy aku x de kasut boy , belanje la aku ..." (smbil mengacau die tgh tgk tv)

bgboy: " tepilah muk aku tgk tv ni ( smbil mencubit aku)

ieka: " ala boy .. ( sambil membalas cubitan perit dri bgboy) bleh aaa aku x berpendapatan lagi" "ko ade dah"

bgboy: hahaha sakit la muk (bls membalas cubit) "berpendapatan? hahha gaji aku pon da habis" "ko pki je kasut dulu "

ieka : "ala boy bleh aa bleh aa " ( sambil memberi cubitan dan pukulan yg amat hebat kepada bgboy sbgi acara penutup ) "hoohohoho hahahhaa aku pown gelak x tahan smbil melarikan diri.

and the next morning

I was stunned to found a hand written envelope at the table.
When i looked through it , one hundreds ringgit were inside it.

It is my lucky day and I would never expected i would get the money because i really didn't mean it that night.

Even i didn't really mean it , but bgboy surely cares.

Who would expect , a guy like him would have a sensitive inner part.

I know I would miss him a lot if we were far apart. Like I missed my sister far away in Japan.

And that's the reason why i am afraid for him to get married. Hurm bile la ari tuh akan dtg?? I know that I would be crying myself out on that day hhhoohoho.

Btw love you bro n the rest of family (harap2 die x penah masuk blog ni) hoohoo

the envelope which make my day !!
thnx alan awad n wana for the cute posed !

guy problem...

2009-11-15T11:11:00.000-08:00

i hate this kind of situation:
when a guy treat you so well , and be nice with you , we would always know why he is acting like that. simple as it seems... well the guy likes us.
But what would you do when they are no more than just a normal friends to u and in the meantime we don't want to hurt them by telling the truth?
the options on ours :tell the truth or to shut up?
truth is bearable, we might lose them as friends and if we are still friends , is not going to be an easy journey for us.
another way is to shut up . The guilt inside ourselves would be dreading more and more and he would do anything for us. But the question is , are we able to carry on the guilt through our lives?

for me : telling the truth would be a noble thing. but what am i supposed to do , when telling the truth would not make any changes for us and i am stuck.

i love this pic taken by my sista. I look so happy in my own world with the balloons.
yet i wish life would be easy like that. :(

italiano morepos!!

2009-11-10T00:49:00.000-08:00

What would u guys do , when u are bored and there is nothing else that you could do ?
whenever i was bored , i would always think about food. and to make myself satisfied i loved to filled my free time with cooking. yups cooking plus baking and eating. lol

food always makes people happy, and so do i. heheh. no wonder la my family would called me muk. ape-ape la janji it would make me happy.

so ,i decided to bake a lasagna. walaweh italiano !
i drag along wana to help me as she have a sleepover in my house! uhuhu
n here it is my lasagna!!

save urself if u have the temptation over my lasagna! lol
it looks yummy right??

i know pictures could be so decieving , but trust me it is really tasty. with those cheddar cheese melting over the meat sauce. yet it mixed together very well. umph !

talk about disappointment

2009-11-06T03:41:00.000-08:00

perasaan plg aku x suka : menghampakan ibu-bapa.

kenapa la bende ni jadi pada diri aku. :(

i know this is life. not always great as what we want. worst it would never reach our own expectations. just need to deal with it. Dear god , please toughen me up to get through all of these.

kwn part 1

2009-11-02T05:53:00.000-08:00

This is all my new family in UPM . all my fren turned out to be poser so susah la ieka nak ade depan kamera skrg ni ish2 ...ieka la plak blkg camera...no matter whut they are all best sgt ...

this one is Zahirah (ZAZA) die dgt chntek and she is full of personality. she seems so quiet but act deep inside herself die x sbr nak kuar tv ..hehhe kite doa la kat die.

this one is kak fiza. tgk die je ..we can see KOREA N JAPAN... x yah gi jauh2 dah. her obsession is only for kattun n akane *&%##%#@# ape tah . but die sgt la baik kalo minx lagu bigbang je mesti die bagi huhuuhu

and this one is my luvly bestfren . wana. so cantik... sgt baik sgt kreatif...n sgt baran ...huhuuhu i know u well dear ...but no matter whut i still luv u babe !! btw she's from labuan jauhkan ..sian die ..

and to rest of my fren ...sabar yek gambar korunk dlm proses ...actually. penat nak korek2 gmbr yg mane potential jadi potrait ... so there would be another parts..just wait for it okeh ...so later ..bubbye and enjoy the pics

hangen satu badan!!

2009-11-02T02:58:00.000-08:00

what a day .. aku punya la excited nak tgk meatballs..
and it turned out my day mcm tut!!!tut!!! aku benci gsc MID VALLEY.
aku ni da la ..yeye pas exam nak gi tgk last2 skali ..
sound system die mcm ci*** kejap ade kejap xde ..
aku byr 17 hengget kowt ... 3d lak tuh ...
awl2 cite dah buat aku hangen !!! aghhhh tensyen gile..
hati terase nak bg pelempang jek...
then...nsib baik aku ni penuh kesabaran
pastu ade la insan yg baik hati wat komplen ..dpt la kitrg tgk dgn sng hati wlpon susah pada permulaan nye..
citenye amatla ceronok sehinggakan aku teringin nak mkn pancake mcd (nasib baik mum granted my wish)
tapi ape yg buat aku hangen lagi!! ...
aku nye hp kene kebas oleh insan yg x bertanggungjawab ..
arghhh i know its my fault tercicir tpi nak bwt cmne aku terlupe
but come on!!! bru je like 5 minutes aku realized then hp tuh dah hilang ...
aku siap tanye agi kat cleaner tuh aishhh buat2 muke x bersalah ..
aku kol hp aku mule2 dpt then x angkat ..
second time kol...aihh dah tutup siot je ...aku tensyennn...
aku tau ade org kebas nye bukan hilang ....
konpem nyee....dah la ..staff 2 dorg tolong cover msing2 ..
dorg ckp mungkin customer lain amik...
x mungkin nye ..sbb aku fara n wana perasan ade dua org cine je kat blkg kitrg ..
n dorg pon kuar skali ngn kitrg ..
x mungkin dorg amik...x mungkin ....
and my day end with tears ..huh berkecamuk hati aku
but thnx to fara , benny , wana, sob n kak dil for making my day ..cuz we have fun that day!!! and no matter what that day aku nmpk kegarangan fara( hebat gile die mara staff gsc) respect u n love u lah!!!
muahxxx

muke aku yg senang hati nak tgk meatball pada awalnya!!!

major disappointment

2009-10-27T22:05:00.000-07:00

I had a tough day , i feel like i'm useless . i failed my JPJ test , both part of it : dalam and jalan raya. Hurm , the day of the test i play along, acting like i'm not nervous and it is not working. i tought it would. the moment they called up my name , i quickly jump into the car , my hands trembling mcm ape je. He reminds me to wear seat belt and yup! ieka is very clumsy ,she didnt remembered what had she been told even its just happens for slightly few seconds. and yes , she failed...
hurm penat la ..i know part of it is my fault and part of it ..hurm x bleh nak salahkan sape2..it just happen. so sorry pa, u have to spend money lagi on me. tapi nak wat cmne kan.. hurm ..so lets see what would happen..for another test.

Fahrin GOJOS!!

2009-10-19T04:20:00.001-07:00

OMG i do love this guy!!
so hot!! so gojosz!!
(i just grab the chance by yelling 'saya' kuat2)
heheheh lucky i get the chance to take picture with him

i've got to tell my uncle , die yg slalu ngusik ckp fahrin nak kawen dah..trying to make me feel sad ..and i will said "not yet la". and now i just feel happy...to have one pic of him with me....

location: latar siswa ,fakulti bahasa moden dan komunikasi
time: 5 lebeh
event: wawancara bersama fahrin ahmad (senior nye event)

p/s: bru petang tdi je , mlm dah post kat blog!! HAHAH mencapap

maths maniac no more!

2009-10-12T06:09:00.000-07:00

I've lost my touch with maths! Argh no!!

I really do love math but now i cant remember multiplication of 6!

I realised when Dr. Hasnah gave out marks and i be the one
struggling to do the calculation..

and guess what i've forgot 8 x 6 is what? i said 42 ..hehhe my bad ..

i guess i need to do form 1 maths all over again ... or not i did not know how to count! yaiks..

putrajaya's view from PICC ( I went to 3rd Anugerah Media Islam Negara ) last sunday
jumpe wardina n jumma yg cun! heheh

nenek!

2009-10-10T10:38:00.001-07:00

i do miss her :

makcik aku sorg ni yg kejenye suke melagho ....je

hey we've been friends since years and now rase plek aa
ko xde .......plek gile ...cepat la ade internet.

btw gud luck for ur studies! i know today is ur first class
and do come back m'sia asap! nnti kite merongeng sesame!

sincerely
ur friend
ieka

Gamat

2009-10-07T00:50:00.000-07:00

last sunday part of my class went on to see musical theater in istana budaya.At first i thought gamat is like bising and afterward i know that gamat is like some living creature under deep sea which can use as medicine.

Amy mastura play AS ibu gamat n natasha hudson play as ikan buntal. After all its like kiddo story which made me dance along the music. hahah

" BERSIHKAN , BERSIHKAN SEMUA"
" KUTIP SAMPAH , BUANGKANNYA"

guys know this song ..nyanyi la..huhu

UPM
BACHELOR OF COMMUNCIATION
2009/2010

aku kuar tv!

2009-10-06T18:52:00.000-07:00

Peoples get really excited and happy when something that they loved comes to them. Like me . Yey! Last night i felt really happy and excited as i get the opportunity to be on tv . (rtm je) Lol

I really do excited when Anas said that we are going to RTM and i didn't even bother to ask him what is it for? btw anas thanx

When i reached there , the first word that caught my eye is "PENYIARAN'.At that moment i feel like i was belong there. I was so happy that i could see it on my own how a tv show would be conducted.

And yey! I get a photo with MR.BIG GUY. bpk besar kamera die.heheh

Being a first year broadcasting student , i still didn't get enough exposure on my major field. so i really felt lucky that i get this opportunity !

dapat jumpe Dr. Fazley ..muke dah jadi mcm ni ..kalo jumpe piere andre.. mcm mane la muke aku nnti

akhir sekali , saya nak ucapkan terima kasih kepada ydp kite yg bwk kitrog mengamatkan studio RTM.

ngeng ngong!

2009-10-02T19:51:00.000-07:00

Lawak nye diri ku ini :

Abg boy ckp : " ieka , org L skali je , ko smpi 4 kali pasal?"

lol.

i have to admit , darn i didnt even get my P license yet. after all i already took lesson right after i am free from SPM. and now still i didn't get my P. It could not be blame on me all by myself (heheh) .

what do you can expect , right after SPM : work (Borders) , PLKN (sbah lak tu) then Matrix ( perlis).

After matrix : melagho kan dri then went on travelling all by myself (yet didnt have much time for driving)

Now , i just made my first move . Yey ! hahah i decide to learn it again in UPM. so wish me luck guys. cuz i really need one

moyang n cicit melagho ..

Unusual night

2009-10-01T21:50:00.000-07:00

Remember when Meredith was having one slot of her life that brings her into shades of death. It is the moment when she saw dead Izzie’s fiancée, Denny Duquete and dead heroic fireman from Seattle Grace bombing case. Aha that is the one. It is very traumatic. Notice that, she saw a very bright light that looks like a welcoming sign. It looks like a path that shows her to a new life after death. It seems like a major wake up call for her.

Same goes to me. I hardly closed my eyes and can’t sleep on one night as I just stared up in the sky. The night was so calm and there is no single sound that could be heard unless the sound of my favorite watch keeps on ticking and ticking. It is 2 am in the morning and that night was Tuesday night. My eyes keep on staring at the sky as if there is something wrong. Yes indeed, there is something wrong with the skies that night. The thunder keep on blaring, non-stop and it blares behind the black clouds as if there is nothing else in the skies. The thunder keeps on striking from the back and to the front as if there is some sort of anger within him. It is not a normal lighting strike, the one that make a big terrifying sound. It is not like the normal lighting because it doesn’t produce a single sound.

At first, I thought it just a lighting strike, but eventually after fifteen minutes keeps stared at the sky; it didn’t stop or even make a sound. At that point, I was really scared. All of my roommates have dozed off to sleep and I was alone in having unusual experience. I was scared and texting my parents and azura if they have the same experience. It was late in the morning, so what more can they say. Gile per ieka ni. Lol. But they kindly ask me to get back to sleep and not to think of it.

So I do what have they say, I get back to my bed and try to get sleep. But deep inside, all kinds of thoughts were through my mind. Worst, I think it is the end of the world. I pray for god’s forgiveness as I know back in the past I’ve had made lot of sin and I never been a good person. At that point, I know it’s too late. There is no time machine for me. But what can I do.

I could only pray and pray continuously until I didn’t realize it is already morning. The moment I opened up my eyes, I was happy and feel grateful to have another day to live. I can’t help myself out and start crying. Suddenly I remember, that I have class at 8 am and guess what, it is already 7.30 am. I rushed to the toile and I’ve made to the class and through the days I keep on thinking that night was a wakeup call for me. Maybe , it happens for my own good and I thank god it happens.

Bahasa Melayu Tinggi Alert!!

2009-09-08T08:33:00.001-07:00

i always wonder where did i come from actually ..my bm always suckx .. i am malaysian and i am purely malay but i dunno y my bm languange always suckss.. hahah mcm la bi aku okeh sgt ..but better la sket dri bm . hhaaha i always bertutur in the wrong way .. like supposed to be kenduri kawin and i ckp kawin kenduri like makan nasi i will ckp nasi makan.. hahah ..all my fren would laugh at me and i didnt realised the words would come out from my mouth .. lolx.. another thing is my upsr didnt get straight a's all becuz of bm . turned out tht i've got b . i made my parents and my teacher ( cikgu zawawi disappointed with me ..but i still dont know wut is wrong with me ..and the reason i post this blog because i have bm presentation tomorow and i've just lost my bm text. hell yeah another things to do ..prepare another text and speech ieka!! ..o god ..i really dun like bm mcm mane nih!!

great weekend!

2009-09-07T17:12:00.000-07:00

last saturday , our whole family gather together . ayip and nina pon ade (yey)..then ..i just got my new camera ..olympus tough ..eventhough i didnt get canon dslr sob :(
but its okeh my brand new camera same dgn alan heheh ..we were all head back to kampung and i had so much fun with my camra hehhe ..i went on snapping on pictures especially flowers ..mama ckp anak2 sume ikot hobby papa gak... nina pon loves to take pic and ieka pon gedik gak..nak same..so here are some of the picta ..that i had took..

(all these pics makes maktok smile cuz she's been the one who do the gardening)

these two was my fav..yaiks no wonder girls loves flower..and i still wonder y my bestfriend wana dun love flower..plek la jugak but she still dream on to have sumone to give her flower eventhough die x suke bunge . but after all i have a very great weekend.

sekadar renungan

2009-08-21T09:36:00.000-07:00

esok dah nak puase.. time ni la nak kumpul pahala byk2 ..kene kurgkan wat dosa ..
tapi aku ade satu bende nak smpikan ..
cube korunk pk ..aku ni x de la bgus mane tp hanya sekadar hamba Allah untuk kite same2 ...memperbaiki diri kite sendiri..

ade ustaz ckp dari hadith:
"kiamat dah dekat kalo nabi Isa turun ke bumi dan hapuskan semua babi".
nampak sangat la kan kite ni umat akhir zaman sbb skrg ni H1N1 datang mcm bala
and smpi skrg x tau lagi cure die ..cube la renungkan2
smbil tuh grabla bulan ramadhan ni seelok2nya.
Ya ALLAH.
Ampunkanlah dosa2 hamba-hamba mu ini
berikanlah perlindungan kepada kami.
Amin

being a 'bad guy'

2009-08-09T03:09:00.000-07:00

I've been listening to my mp3 meiko
and now i realized that i am just like her....lol.
somehow it does related to me..

BOYS WITH GIRLFRIENDS
But I knew
She was jealous from the start
Yeah I knew
She was jealous from the start

Cos I know better
Not to be friends with boys with girlfriends
Oh I know better than that I know better
You play the victim and I'll be the bad guy
I know better than that, I know better

What she did to us was tragic
Oh oh oh
And I have to do what's right
Oh oh oh
What we had was really magic
Oh oh oh
But I have to get what's mine
Oh
I don't get what's mine
And you get yours

dun ever ever near "them" for the early advice
or you'll end up like us (meiko n me) playing a good role of a 'bad guy'

ps: by the way sis i miss u a lot..
blik la ..cepat2
nnti 1 hari je baik
pastu gaduh ..hahaha
kak ni ...pic kat jepun ..
ur baby pink yg papa x nak betulkan
sadis:(

FIZIKAL 1 TUTORIAL 2

2009-08-07T07:38:00.000-07:00

retro dak?

I'm clearing my LAPPY today n i was looking at old picta. seriously by looking at all of this pic make me wanna go back to matrix ..really loved this times... miss u all
btw i miss physic though hhehe da lama x blaja kira2 convert ke nano or pico hahaha

my class list names:

NG JIA HAO, HO YOKE KEONG ,GOH CHAN YEE
NATASYA ,WANI, ASMA ,IEKA, NIK AQILAH , PUTRI
ATIQ, EJAT, ZALIKHA, MADI, ABBAS, SHAREL
LUWIE NAZMI ARIFF ,AFIQ AFIFI DARNIA, ROMZI
FAIEZEL LIQUAT ALI , HUZAIM , ACAP,

hurm dah cukup owt.. btw ..thnx ..
to cikgu yuli ,miss shiqin , en fakhram and teacher ainis
syg sgt 2 kat korunk sume!

love fool?

2009-08-04T21:23:00.000-07:00

Would it be fair if I say being in love make us look stupid? Huh?
Maybe those who are in love didn’t agree and denying it but guess what it is make us look dumb.
At this time u guys would say what a bitter girl I am.
Indeed I am I’ve become bitter and bitter each day.

As I clear my things from my cupboard, I found a thick red book. An A4 sizes book. A book contains thousand of word and emotion. I laugh my heart all out as I really recognized the book. I knew well what is inside the book as it is belong to me. Heehe it is mine. Its book that I made by myself when I was 15 years old. Yup I know 4 years ago. It is a book I made for my first love.

Lol it is funny like what u really have time to do all this stuff? Entah la dlu nyer citer

I decided to make a scrapbook that has our entire story together. It is lame right? And I want to give to him on his birthday. What a failure, till now the book didn’t get to his hand.

When I go on thru pages n pages, I could imagine back in the past how passionate I am being in love. Hahaha passionate ye la tuh . I could remember all of our dates, where it was, what is his fav things, spot, food and all the memory was there in the book. Ini sume pasal cinta monyet la. Love make us look like a fool kan better if I hafal sume formula physic at that time rather than those nonsense things. Bodoh juga saya ni. No wonder la in mrsm I mcm tahi sket. Hahaha

But the point is when we’re in love we do stupid things for our partner just to be happy. So who cares?

My advice Be a fool and be happy when you are all in love!

btw i am still waiting for my prince charming in a shining Armour come to me with his white horses (cinderella version)

p/s:i am still waiting for my prince charming come to me with his dslr and volvo xc-90 . ( my version - mata duitan ke??)

mer and christina :)

2009-07-29T11:02:00.001-07:00

'enjoy having ur premarital life together ye
enjoy this long two person only life, because i bet its going to be a long one
because i guess u can only go out on a double date with me
but i'm not sure that going to be possible any sooner because i like having to enjoy my solo life right now
and if i ever get attach with any guys
unlike u two's relationship, i bet we are very open to let other seeing any other people, and we don't get insecure all the time'

this is when nina become meredith .. thnx sis for ur support

kak yasmin..

2009-07-27T09:00:00.000-07:00

may god bless her..
insyallah allahyarhamah will be peace in there.
dear kak yasmin i really love your artworks..
n i hope i will be creative as u are ...
ieka

asam garam hidup

2009-07-18T22:48:00.000-07:00

Padan muke dgn ko ieka. sape suruh menyebok ..kan dah makan hati
neways thts life ..u done wrong things and u'll will get balasannye :)

a single agreement

2009-07-17T12:36:00.000-07:00

When it comes to discussion time, we always have an idea or suggestion that hangs around in our mind and yet it still remained there, can’t be voice out as we are scared. We scared of rejection, to be stare at, scared if our ideas are not relevant and there are lots of other things to be scared off.
But the real thing is we feel scared because we are expecting positive responses from them and we’ll never know how they would react.
That is the issue: We want an agreement among others.
But the irony is we didn’t realized, a single agreement is not easy to be achieved. It is not like when we say something, everyone going to agree with us.

This situation happens to me all the time and I realized it last Saturday when I have to go to “starting school”. It is a program under UPM and all of us have to go in order to grad! Hehehe. So, this starting school is like a seminar conducted by 1 instructor and the main purpose of this seminar is: they want student able to speak out what they feel and be more confident.

So, we were all having our own group and most of the activities will be done by grouping presentation. We got one task to handle. A task to define status of relationship and we have to present it. We divide the work and I’ve got mine. I have to define what “org asing” is. Then I gave my opinion what is actually “orang asing” and suddenly someone is objecting me.

I said “orang asing adlah orang yang kita x kenal and kite x peduli pon. Contohnya kalo kita kat dalam lrt , x kan la tibe2 kita ckp hye , ape khabar.” Then later on, one girl from another group proposed their opinion showing that they are disagreeing. “ x mustahil orang asing kita x ambil peduli” . I keep repeating ‘LRT situation’ as it was my greatest point to support my stand. So I gave them chance to say what they think and I still not buying it.

For me I live almost all my life in KL and I always see people staring at the ceiling, at the floor or even staring at their blank phone even though there is no message sending to them, just to fill their time until they reached their destination. They won’t talk unless someone approaching them and it is true. I was one of them. Our instructor is in mid 50 , gave his opinion and yet it still not in the same line with me. He said that all of us are sombong and ego .He literally point out to us, teenagers. “ zaman dulu , sume org betegur sape, itu yang bagus zaman dahulu”

This discussion went on until I x larat nak stand up for what I think. Then I made my own conclusion: we can’t force someone to agree with us because everyone has their own perspective and everyone has different background. So we have to bear it, respect them but deep inside yourself put your own faith and build your own integrity!

Ps : x sangka aku tulis pnjg2 ni . sbb x leh tdo.
btw pic tuh sume kwn2 bru aku yg kenal kat upm. love to have them. :)

puberty stage?

2009-06-23T10:59:00.000-07:00

What is wrong with me? tell yourself what is wrong with you? What made you cried, suddenly? Why you always take thing seriously .Why you always make yourself hurt. Why can’t you be someone else? Someone who care less, who never take responsibility, who doesn’t care for everything, who only think for herself, who can be selfish for their own good , someone who is just happy for themselves. Why and why? I just can’t be like her because it is not me.

Tears are drooling from my eyes like a river yet I still don’t know what is wrong with me. Yey ! Abruptly I’m singing JT cry me a river in my head!

Mums always right for whatever she will be saying. She always remind me “stop being a kid and don’t cry too much, be an adult ieka”.

Then she will be asking question:

When will u be a grown up adult?

I answered her with just a short cackle. I know the answer doesn’t make the cut but temporarily it’s okay.

Because that question always been in my head always! Always like forever.

There are e lots of thing I don’t know about myself:

Like why you always nice to people even they are mean to you?

Like why you like to sacrifice for others while the others don’t care less.

Like why you always act like you don’t care but the real thing is you care much?

Like why you so hard to express utterly word by word to anyone?

Like why you always in a comfort zone when it comes to a relationship?: alia yg ckp.I still wonder what is actually behind her lines.

And the list went on and on …

Until it don’t make sense.

Those question aren’t going to end and I don’t need to figure it out because it is just makes me nuts. So by the end of writing this post, I am slowly recovering. :)

fate to believe!

2009-06-23T02:14:00.000-07:00

Syafika binti Mohd Ghazi will be going:

UPM
COMMUNICATION
3 YEARS

wish me luck

Behind Hotdogs

2009-06-17T10:46:00.000-07:00

It is wrong if our imaginations run wild and we didn’t even bother to end it because it gave us a slightly happiness? We know that it would never come true yet we still keep on imagine things because we never knew, it might be true someday. Someday, one day or in future that I referred to is actually our hoped. Hope is like twin sister or brother to imagination as when we are imagine things the reality of yourself actually desperately hoped that things turned out to be like the one in your imaginary land. All of us had been through this sheepishly imaginary land when we are toddlers and up till now we are still imagining widely over the universe.

The same thing goes to myself as I always been imagine things. Like, when my sister and I had been watching travel ASTRO channel one day. The Country that they are showing is United States and they are really famous for their hotdogs. At first I really caught myself extremely hungry as I watched lot of image of hotdogs been cooked. Then I move my head to my sister who is beside me and my mind runs wild thinking, what if we open up a hotdog stall in Malaysia. My sister sudden give a slightly nod with another idea. We opened up a stall only for hotdogs and no burger as Ramlee burger already exist. We will be like subway but ours are Malaysian made and cheaper. We will be rich, popular as our hotdogs are so tasty and we will be making into television show.

Our conversation runs excitedly unstoppable and there, we just had thrown ourselves into joyfully imaginary land. Five minutes of happiness and we feel very content at that time. Mama realized that we are dreaming on, she grinned to both of us and her smiled remind us that any idea of ours never going to be real. Yet I feel very happy for having these 5 minutes of bliss. We both know that we are wasting our time on the hotdogs but it is okay, we know the fact there is nothing wrong when we let ourselves be in another world beside reality.

sapporo trip part 1

2009-06-10T11:41:00.000-07:00

the night before i flew to japan my mum couldnt stop babbling from a to z's as she went on and on like have u packed ur underwear or have u bring ur toothbrush and its leading on "take care of yourself and doa byk2 kalo org tegur jgn ikot " shes freaking out because it is my first time travel alone without my parents to sum kind of foreign country. im kinda lepak je but takut gak la coz they mostly dont speak english so that is what i am going to deal with. hahah
but in the end everything went okay , the flight was okay eventhough i have lost my ticket for my first flight from malaysia to narita ap then i found it back without telling my mum , luckily. lol
then im having jet lagged n i fall asleep at haneda airport without thinking other ppl . what do i care. yaalah im foreigner sorg jer pki tudung plek sket la tp pe ku kesah blasah je la dah penat. ngeh*) then finally i arrived at sapporo chitose and my sista wasnt there. lambt sket buat aku cuak je . so here adela pic sket2 yg dah edited.

my new munchkin

2009-06-10T10:47:00.001-07:00

This is my new munchkin ganti the old one lovie.
btw this is her birth certificates :

Name: TOTTY AKIKO YUN-CHA or

とっつ明子ゆんちゃ

Date of birth: 6th JUNE 09

Birthplace: University of Hokaiddo , Japan

sex: female (determined by ieka)

Birth fee: 300 yen

Sweetest memory : the moment ieka buys me , and
when ieka cuddle me thru the nite.

unforgettable memory: the moment ieka’s butt pressing my face

sad memory: ieka couldnt find me where im stucked
in piles of clothes

lol im kinda fall in love at the first sight with totty so i decided to buy her
lgpon die murah hahahn plus its for the sake of charity.

A story to tell

2009-05-30T09:16:00.000-07:00

I have a story to tell. Story that shows my stupidity or not. ngeh :)When i returned home one night from a movie, kak ninie and mama was busy preparing their baking stuff to make muffins. After that, they realized that they don't have muffin baking cups and mama asked me to buy the baking cups along with abang boy as a driver. It was 10.30 pm and most all of the shop was already closed. So both of us hope that there is a supermarket might be open.

KAMPUNG PANDAN

when we reached kampung pandan and found out supermarket that we were hoping on have closed, we were disappointed. This stupidity story begin right when abang boy gave me one idea "ha, kite gi kedai bakery, ko try tanye akak tu kite mintak beli a muffin cups tuh?" and i was laughing and thinking that he must be joking, but his face doesn’t seem so and i ignored him later on, I gave him another idea " dri kite gi crik bakery shop better kite cepat2 gi tesco maybe bukak lagi". Abang boy later on keep insisting me that we try for his idea. I still don’t think that his idea was reasonable. Bakery shop is where we buy breads, cakes not baking utensil and is not like they were permitted to sell it. Then we kept arguing for about 5 minutes then he assumes that I was not brave enough to ask. “Ala, ko x berani , nina lagi berani" . "Hah , ko igt aku x berani ke, k. cepat a carik kdi bakery ,aku x kesah ade mulut aku tanye je a".

PANDAN JAYA

So we headed to pandan jaya where we know there is one bakery shop near the mamak stall. When we nearly arrived there abg boy trying to scared me off like "hah , nak smpi dah prepare2x" nah fyi , i wasnt even scared pon . It turned out that the bakery was closed. hahaaha I was laughing of victory because I feel like I’m winning while abang boy keep on saying that I was laughing of relief. Later on we keep on arguing and fighting who is right, and who is wrong. Then abang boy want to prove me wrong that Tesco already closed. At this time I was really freak out, yelah the time already 10.50 pm and by the time we reached Tesco there are high possibilities that Tesco already closed. But what can I do, being in the car , had enough of our disagreements its like one moment silence of death. So I just shut myself up and prayed that Tesco still open.

AMPANG

Abang boy drop me off in front Tesco entrance and suddenly I was stunned , my leg wasn’t moving and I have one thought in my mind " wtf Tesco dah tutup la , ada announcement lagi bagtau dah tutup " , then Abang boy jerked me out " tunggu ape lagi , pegi la." "Siot tol , xpe aku prove aku betul" Actually Tesco in their headway to closed, there are many Tesco workers are doing their jobs , stocks up things , cleaning off and security guards walking around checking are there any customers. The workers all stare at me like I have done anything wrong ya lah actually I can understand what they felt. " aku tau korg penat kerje layan la aku" Finally I found what I want , quickly grab it ,ignoring the stare and pay it . After paying I knew that I’m in the winning state, my hearts leaps out of victory and I smell joy in the air. I know, from the beginning I was right and I was able to prove to my brother that I have a point. I enter the car, smile a bit to my brother and off we go back home, but at that moment I could see that he was smiling of shame. :) "hahahah" i feel like laughing myself out but i control myself and trying to be cool because we both know who is winning. yay! That’s me!

HOME

I gave mama tesco plastic bag and suddenly she called me up. " ieka , ko salah beli la" I ran to my mum and ask her why. She giggled and say "Ko beli salah size la , what the waste" . What a waste for mama are the money and time that we wasted for buying the muffin cups but I laugh to myself wonders, all those shouting’s that I have with my brother it seems like a waste but in the end I learns something: it's not about winning it’s actually how he shaped me to be more brave, courageous and ravage so that I would be ready to face the real world.

Thanks bro.

30th may

Abg Boy : " Kalo ko sesat kat tgh jalan , takde teksi , x kan la ko nak tumpang org x leh haram ek. "Pakcik nak tumpang boleh, saya sesat" " Eh pakcik bukan teksi la dik x tumpangkan org" “ x sama ke kalo ko in desperate situation nak muffin cups tuh?”:)
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You and Me

2009-05-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

All this while, I realised that we are born to be someone's companion, friends or lovers. First seconds we meet someone, we say hi, shake hands, introduced ourselves and later on we become friends. It is such an easy thing and it took up a little of our courage to be the first to say "hi" .But noticed that 5 minutes of talking it is a phase that determined whether we clicked or not. If there is chemistry between us, 15 minutes talking is like a second and the more we shared things the more closed we felt. Soon we both feel safe and secure because we know there is someone beside us, to be with us and all in the name of friendship. We share everything secrets, problem even shoes or clothes. That the actual points of having friends they make us comfortable, happy, and alive. Nevertheless, good and bad things come equally. We cannot force something that we could not do. Being apart is not a choice, someone got to go, letting go is hurtful and hoping that everything would be the same is such a big mistake. Everything changed and we felt bad about it. But the past would never be forgotten, memory of us being together still strongly say that we are good friends. We hold to it and put aside all those evil thought, like "god damn it, she have a new friends and she is happy with them, let her be. I’m no longer her friends" or "ouch that's hurt she didn’t reply my message after all , she might busy with her new friends till she forgets me". It is all those un-matured or childish thought that should not be linger in my mind. So toss that all away , do our duty as supporting friends, keep in touch and once in a while hang out together so that the memory of the past would not be vanished forever .More over we have to believe that everything happens have its reason . So just be true to yourself and cherish your friends.

So whenever we are free , we texting each other and we will hang out with each other so that things you and me will still be remained.

date: 5th May 09

venue: Red box , Pavillion

celebration of our memories together

azlan did try hard to be on in million

la , awad, ten ton and azlan

duets that blow away opsie i mean bomb away